Meaningless_Life

2006-09-15T08:02:00.000-07:00

A day of a bad week....

feel a little bit of sore throat & feel dizzy...got a gan jue wanna fall sick AGAIN le...aiyo...since boss todae also nt in then i decided to take half day leave...i see i still got the strength so acc karen to go finish her thing...going jurong point AGAIN...lolx...erm...meetin karen @ outram park MRT...reached there mi startin to feel abit unwell le...bt still ren zhu lo...then in the train lucky got seat...then mostly is karen do the toking coz i got no mood to tok le...reached jurong point we first go haf our lunch in the food junction...i walk walk to see wad to eat...ended up i buy slice fish soup n a bowl of rice...mei you she men wei kou leh...bt still haf to eat...finish eating le karen go setter her thing...on the way my phone rang...it an unknown name so i pick it up...she sae: hello is tat jialin? i'm hazel from Cabdury Singapore...i reply: oh ya...i am...she ask mi when can i start to work needed how long??coz she urgent need ppl...she ask mi to tell yvonne(agent) or her when i can start work tml...wah so happy man...

so i go home i rest first...coz realli no strength le...after karen haf setter her thing she wanna walk walk in jurong point bt i reali cant tahan le...so i sae we go home bah...from there go home...i realli feel veri xin ku le...i drop down at woodlands...then rush to the toilet...i throw out all the thing i eaten juz now...phew~~feel more comfortable le...then went back home...at nite i call rachel ask tell her abt the job i been gt in n ask her how...coz i can t gif 7days notice as they urgent...bt then ask le also like nv ask like tat...anyway i no need to sae until too detail...coz if wanna sae it a long long thing to sae...haha...

2006-09-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

YAWNz~~Yesterday & today boss not in the office...haha...tell u all one thing...shh~~haha...mi nth to do in the office plus boss nt in i fall aslp...reali slpy when there is nth to do man...signing timesheet is veri ma fan lo...somemore nw they got the cut off date...diaoz...if boss nt in for the whole month i mati le lo...haha...actually wanted to let her sign todae so tat i can post the timesheet out to the agent le...bt then...haiz...suay de lo...tis is nt the first time le...everytime wanna let my boss sign she nt in de...nt taking leave then on training or go meeting...busi women...lolx...no choice le haf to see monday how let her sign le then pass it to Rachel (agent) personally lo...doing nth much in the office todae...juz pass time...

2006-09-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

i'm back here to update my blog again le...lolx...i have been MIA since i started work...coz no time to online on weekdays...if got tat time i prefer to go find zhou gong lo...find zhou gong sae lame joke...wahaha...

meet karen @ jurong point...then we go there eat le shop shop...i tinking of buying shoe de coz shoe spoilt le can b throw into the dustbin le...haha...while we walking we saw there is a disney event heldin on...it for those little princess...karen sae she wanna join too -_-''' they r spinning with the hu la hoop...so cute...haha...hao hui yao wor... ^_^ they can wear thier choices of princess wear n take photo...n i saw tis little ger she wore a mermaid custom...n put make up prepare to take photo...my god her movement all tat make mi tink of winnie...lolx...when she walk she noe how to shake...erm...dun seem to b a kid more like xiao da ren...after walkin in jurong point until there nth to shop le we headed to causeway...so tired~~walk for awhile only then go back home le...tiring day~~

2006-09-03T08:05:00.000-07:00

ar ha...todae went in to malaysia again...lolx...

bt tis time nt tat fun...nv brought anything...sad...haha...wake up at 715 in the morning then go prepare to start off...heex...bt at least weekend got thing to do lah...nt so boring slackin at home...then we went to jusco at first then thinking uh...go there again...coz juz go only...then my cousin decide to go other place in the end...so we haf our breakfast first then shop shop there until afternoon like tat we go to another shopping centre...tat shopping centre is kinda small...coz it only one floor shopping...then we reached it our lunch time...yeah!!haha...we go to secret recipe...it my first time eating there...erm...the conclusion is i prefer pastamania or swensen then secret recipe...somemore the waitress there nt veri friendly...when i place my order her attitude is like shit...haha...then i angry until i go take a feedback form...opps...sound bad hor...bt i tink one feedback wont do anything de lah...

then after eating it shopping time...haha...when i first step into the shopping mall i see like got many shoe to buy...bt reali go walk like nth de leh...sianz...wanna buy shoe also dun haf...there an clown event there...so we sit there coz nth to walk le...then got one event sae if u spent RM50 in the shopping mall u can haf a eating (da wei wang) competition...one time it a digital camera for the winner...wah...sound great...bt my cousin too walk too slow le...then let other go up first...coz one time only three person...bt they nt fair...coz the three of them is relative lai de...then two can slowly eat ma...then the second time nt good le...coz it juz like a consolation prizes only even if u win...lolx...then the clown come n ask my cousin to go up coz like no one wanna go up le...then my cousin push my bro ask him to go...then we all keep askin my bro to go up lo...haha...he sae he can eat finish de...bt then too dry le...hard to eat...lolx...nvm..it juz a game...

n the day continue...

2006-09-02T02:32:00.000-07:00

hey all...i'm back...n finally is back...lolx...

i read my fren (jianyang aka edison) blog...i found wad he sae is true i 101% agree...tis world is reali reality...u cant do anything without money...even now i got a planning of takin up course bt there come thing in of mi...tat money...no money how to take up course...someone will b telling mi lent from parent...i got reason of y nt lending from parent...as one of my relative sae b4 to mi...she sae u use ur own money to take up course so tat u will heart pain n will study hard...i tink over mayb it true...bt tink over it again...if like tat i juz graduate n start to work as temp only then how would i haf the money to pay my course fee??sometime i wish tat i'm rich...bt i'm nt...jianyang say in his blog tat "sometime, a fact, a love or frenship also need money" y in tis world everything is money money money....

sometime i dun reali like fren ard to b in a relationship...nt tat i'm jealous of wad...it reali nt tat i jealous...bt i admit tat i'm envy...back to tat...i sae i dun like fren to b in a relationship coz they dunno how to tink for those single de feeling...(i'm nt pinpointing at anyone...)...sometime i tink wad fren realli for...mayb for frens for many years de will b like tat too...i dunno...ren xin nan ze...bt how i wish i would find the right person too...hu dun??

anyway...todae planning to go relax...been hoping for tis weekend since wed i tink...n finally sat...bt everything is nt wad i tink...it doesnt came out as wad i tink...sad~~if i noe earlier i will cancel it le...n my tear slowly drop down...luckily tat moment train nt so many ppl...if nt i tink they will gt shock bah...bt since i'm out le...so i will try to let it go...n control my tear...bt dunno y i alway cant control...my tear still drop non stop n chris saw it...n i gif a lame answer when she ask...i told her coz yawn so tear drop...lame rite?

then meet winnie at orchard...then we walk to chris's aunt de condo...thanks to her aunt n husband for warm welcoming...her husband intro us ard showing us where is the washroom, the room tat we can use...n ask us to make ourselve at home...cool rite??hee...after tat we gt change n when for our swim...wanted to swim for veri long le...n finally...oh ya...mi n winnie meet a happening thing tat the both of us nearly drown in the swimming pool...chris go put her drink n mi n winnie wanna go explore the deepest water level...n noe wad...winnie actually behind mi...n i step the deep water i juz tell winnie bt she already step inside le...the worst is she cant swim...she hold mi bt i cant realli do anything n wanted to go back to the normal bt then winnie holding mi n pull mi back to the deep level...my god!!! in the moment i'm thinking...siao liao...mati le...mayb will b drown here...i reali cant do anything in the moment...bt in the end luckily we still alive...lolx...it realli let mi haf a feel of death... -_-''' n luckily winnie is fine too... =)
3 plus we gt up to bathe...thn chris's aunt make cookie n coffee for us...how sweet is she...heex...

*Once again thanks chris's aunt n her husband... :)

after tat we take cab back....ending...

2006-07-08T22:58:00.000-07:00

hmm...been graduate frm ite bishan for ard 3 months plus le ba...n nowadays been tinking wad i wanna b or wad ambition i haf for my future...for now i got a new thinking n plan of wad i wanna b...bt still nt too sure if tat is the real thing i wan ant...so juz wait n see ba...will go n try out...gif the best...n no slacking all the way like i use to b in the past few years...each day to mi now should treasure it le...all the best to mi ba...lolx... :)

2006-07-07T11:42:00.000-07:00

TRIP TO GENTING ON

14 JUL to 16 Jul 2006

(sori for the late update of photos)

my niece n i...isnt she cute??yummpy ice cream...

strawberry chesse cake ice cream... :)
haha...sitting on the fake horse....
mi n my niece again...
mi & my sis....
my bro & mi
background: hotel
mi n my bro trying to make funny face
my bro trying to act cute...

bt the hand is nt his...it belong to my sis....

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2006-07-06T11:57:00.000-07:00

outdoor theme park(1) in genting
outdoor theme park(2) in genting
wad is my sis doing?
the other side of mi...keke
mi again while waiting for the car to

fetch us to eat dinner...

the four of us....

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2006-06-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

today going to pub again...bt tis time is with sec sch frens...

meeting yuting in dohby ghaut after work at 5.30pm...i tinking todae should b a long day for mi ba...so decided to take a nap in the office...opps... :x Shh....haha...no choice the air conditioner in the office reali make mi wanna slp all the time...lolx...we went to pastamania to haf our dinner...coz cant wake until jianyang to come then eat...by the time i will b real hungry le...bt luckily also nv wake for him to come b4 we eat...coz his fren late...so ended up the both of them late until 8 plus??dun realli remember the time le...hao yi shi leh...let the two gers wait for u two guys...aiyo...lolx...when they reached...we headed to long john silver coz jianyang n his fren havent eat yet...bla bla bla~~after tat we take cab headed to clarke quay...we walk round n round n round to see wic to entered...n finally decision make...we went in to Q something de...forgt the name le...admission fee for ger:$20 guy:$25...a $5 different...n we found a sit n settle down...know wad?they going to watch world cup...my goodness...it bored mi...yawns...sitting now there n got nth to do no choice i watch the match too...soccer to mi is like a ball chased by many guys...lolx...*no offence hor to soccer lovers* dunno izzit coz of working le used to slp everyday b4 12am...when the time going to reach 12am my eye is like too heavy n wanna close le...n tink without them knowing...i got slp when i was sitting on the chair ba...n u know wad the chair is like pub chair high de...n i can still slp...lolx...bt then only for 5 mins la...haha...ard 1+ to 2am we went back le...bt only mi n yuting went home...the guys continue to find a place to watch soccer again...my god!!haha...r they soccer freak?wahaha....

2006-06-30T11:17:00.000-07:00

argh!!reali dun like ppl who haf two faces...y do some ppl like to act as if they know the whole world thing...my god!!!all i can sae is no one is perfect...it TRUE!!!can anyone tell mi u r perfect????no rite?so stop acting...k?i no longer a kid...i know wad i'm doing...think i stopping here for todae coz dunno how to continue in tis kind of mood....

tml will b a better day...tis is wad i been hopin everyday... :) *smile*

2006-06-28T11:07:00.000-07:00

today after work i meet karen at dohby ghaut north east line station there...coz it wednesday n karen decided to go for ladies nite...as it ladies nite...for ladies goin there no need any admission fee...n the drink is free to (limited type)...lolx...we went to MOMO...it my first time going to this type of place...when we entered the place got three guy think going to the age of 30 le ba...ask if we wanna join ant...bt we like kinda ignore lo...thn a bar tender malay guy sae they invited us to go join them...bt we still ignore...lolx...sound dao?at first i think it too...bt karen sae nt lo...k...then nt long karen's fren shu hui n her bf came...it kinda boring there i can sae...mayb it dun suit mi to go to all this places ba...haha...coz i got a innocent fren...lolx...wahahaha!!!ard 1030 we went back home le...another tiring day...

2006-06-14T08:59:00.000-07:00

here to update my blog again~~~

i'm having mood swing again le...haiz...today i taking one day off coz winnie parent open chalet then ask if i wanan go ant...then i decided to go coz i wana rest...since work long long nv reali rest le...even weekend also hard to slp until late late le...dunno y...even today off i 8 plus already wake up le...haiz...then wake up watch one disc of chun xiang (a korean drama) thn go prepare to go out le...

time passes so fast when nv work...haiz...then ard 6 plus?tink so...chris sae tat uncle realli booking out...then going to meet him for dinner...then we rented bicycle so we haf to go n return it b4 it close (8pm) then chris sae take cab back yishun she paid...we juz finish dinner only we go ride the bicycle le...if ride slow nvm...bt then out of time le...no choice...haf to ride fast...then ended up i got abit gastric pain... -_-'''

thn reached yishun le...coz chris sae uncle's fren sae they din haf light off...mayb tml...coz the seg say too late to come out le...bt then another side uncle say he got come out bt now inside le...isnt it weird?so...i missed two bus acc chris see how...bt then 169 come le i board le...when reached my blk...i gt down bt then dun feel like goin up first...so i sit at the void deck for awhile...tis is the first time...tink my life is getting suck le...i dunno wad the reason for mi to continue tis life le...

2006-05-27T07:30:00.000-07:00

my tear drop when i heard tat my friend's boyfriend is tis type of person...izzit coz pisces is too emotional le or wad...y all guyz is the same...from wad i noe tat guy...he is not tis type of person de...there realli no good guy in tis world le...there isnt any devoted guy in tis world le...i nv believe guy word le...their word cant b taken truth...wad did ger did??y they must treat ger like tis???i dunno y i heard my friend say abt her bf liking someone else my tear juz drop...it realli hurt a ger lot lor...do guy noe the hurting feeling???????????????????????????????????dun they stand in our shoe??thier juz one sentence can push all the thing aside??do u all noe wad the sentence is...it "got no feeling le"....shit them...wad do u all mean by no feeling le...izzit so easy for them to let go a relationship???it like they changing thier clothes everyday...as easy as ABC for them...bt it took lot n lot of time for a ger to recover...n there will b a shadow following them...it hard for them to start in a new relationship when the ger gt hurt in the past relationship...i dun tink guyz care...coz they wont haf any disadvantage...n they still keep changing n changing n changing....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and then in the path of the relationship BITCHES tend to come out...can those bitches know thier limit??cant they see tat he is attached???if u all r so bitches y dun go geylang...it a best place for u all...k?now it realli change my view of seeing a guy lor....

2006-05-26T06:56:00.000-07:00

Todae as usual wake up early in the morning at 6am preparing to go to work...now i will treasure the time liao...when nth to do le most properly will b b4 12am i will b slpin le...coz scared in the office realli fall aslp...last time still can slp veri late bt nt now le..haiz...no matter how much or how long i had slp it nt enough for mi de...Gosh! like tat how am i going to work for the rest of my life b4 my retirement...lolx...

After work meet karen...coz she ask mi to acc her to JR's BBQ gathering as he going to NS le...bt then know wad?only a few ppl there onli...my god...somemore all guys onli mi n karen r gers at there...feel so weird at the situation...But lucky Yuebin know how to talk much...

Ard 1am like tat we take cab home...in the cab mayb too tired le...suddenly fall aslp...haha...then when reaching yishun i found out tat i forgt to bring my key...omg...then hp no batt...karen lend mi her hp to call...then i call my bro coz he usually slp veri late de...bt i called no one pick up...argh~~then call my sis also no wan pick up...no choice karen ask mi to stay over in her house for one nite lo...actually wanna talk to karen for the nite de...coz nan de...bt then i fall aslp in the living room again...haha...

in the morning ard 11am prepare n wanted to go home le...then karen meeting ben...n we go down saw ben...n he drove...so he gif mi a ride lo...thank... :)

2006-05-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

finally found a job...todae the first day of work...n guess wad...i cant gt in to slp for the whole nite lo...coz was too nervous n scared of the first day of work...dunno wad will happen...as i noe am super blur de lo...so now i will try to work for the best in work...try nt to b so careless in work le...n got thing must ask...as the boss tell mi todae...she will nt scold if i duno i speak out...bt if i duno n i dun ask n do in a mess i will get scoldin...hope tat will nt haf tis day...GOD bless...lol :P
erm...actually now tis company i working is at harbour front...the company name is Canon
Singapore Pte Ltd...it a japan company...the first day of work i only help to do filing...at first it seem fresh...bt when i keep doing it my eye is closing...lolx...i even pretend tat i writing holding a pen in my hand...bt then...my eye is close de...haha...hope no one saw it...my table near my boss de table then quite alot of ppl walking pass...then no choice i went to the toilet n slp for awhile...realli for awhile only...too tired le...coz of those number i see when filing...then e boss ask mi to help her type one quotation form n print it out let her sign then i haf to fax it...it fun lo...haha...

second day of work doing the same thing too...if feel the time pass faster than the time i sch attached to the company i working too...there reali sux lo...bt there got one thing is tat nothing to do can read magazine n play game...haha...bt here cant...coz i sort of sitting in front n everyone is behind mi...so cant do anything if nt all can see le...sad man~~~

2006-05-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

Grr...another start of the week...i still havent found any work...sad to say tat...

but then tis week i'm nt tat free...the same...going for interview interview interview...argh!!sian leh...everytime go interview...morning ard 10am meet tracy n chris in yishun control station go haf our breakfast...then went to primestaff dajie office...thn she brief mi abt my interview later on...then after i finish tracy n chris turn to go in...then chris also going for interview later on same as mi...thn tracy go nic hse after tat she nv acc us to canon interview...coz she sae too far...after our interview we go harbour front walk walk awhile then take mrt le...i meeting yuting in yishun n chris meeting her's uncle...tat wad i been doing todae...isnt it boring??

2006-05-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

y cant i live happily de...san fei liang chi got problem coming to mi...so tired~~relative n family...now even frenship got problem...tiring life i'm living on...wanna ma jiu myself...hide myself...disappear here...

2006-05-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!!!!!!wad a life....hate everything........y all becum like tis......tis is all nt i wan.....i everyday stay at home help to do house chore......in the end wad i gt?????friend dun understand mi....family dun understand mi.....hate living in tis kind of life.....i hate everything in my life.....there nothing tat would make mi happy......i hate all tis thing.....feel like hiding myself.....feel like disappear in tis world.....I WAN TO LEAVE TIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!i like so vexed everything dun seem to b in the right path....everyone think tat i alway can laugh n joke around....bt tat nt the real mi....i dunno how to express myself well....n i tend to keep thing to myself.....wad i can do??i wanna go to a place tat no one noe mi....start all over again.....i dunno wad thing tat still can make mi to b happy to stay in this toopid world le.....no fairness no justice.....i realli tired le.......i tired of every single thing in my life.....remember sometime i'm nt the wan u all think i'm.....it hurt to see the ppl ard u dun understand n misunderstand u......

2006-04-30T10:18:00.003-07:00

chris with e snake...tinking veri long then decide to take de...

haha...winnie with e snake...bt her face look funny

our foot print left in the beach...

chair lift...it high...scary!!!

tiring out after a day....
Eee....chris & winnie holding SNAKE
the five of us in sentosa *ferry terminal*
the senoria in sentosa...taken when sitting chair lift...
the five of us in siloso beach...love tis pic
in the bus on the way to sentosa :)

todae having a fun day...lolx...

morning wake up at ard 8.30am meeting karen & chris at yishun at 9.45...then from there go ang mo kio meet up tracy....wake up go bath then prepare bread for berries except tracy...coz she sae the weather too hot she dun haf the appetiate to eat...n she dun like to eat egg mayo bread as i making...so no choice lo...tracy u got no kou fu... :p bleahx...

then we meeting winnie at habourfront...then go supermarket buy titbits...thn tracy saw big sale...lol...thn go buy a coreless phone...haha...tracy...wanna learn from mi ar use coreless phone then tok on the phone wana do wad also can hor...lolx...then after acc tracy to buy the coreless phone we actually wanna go take cable car up to sentosa de...bt thn go to the cable car the Q there...omg!!ended up we zhi hao guai guai de go take bus lo...bt then bus quite fast de la...we stand inside the bus like playing roller coster like tat...fun!!haha...our first stop in sentosa is Siloso beach...it hot bt also fun...coz the outing is special...we do take pic too...taking picture is our group 'MUST' thing...haha...

after tat we go sit sky chair...tat the main point tat we going sentosa...haha...at first i dun feel scared or wad de...coz i got sit it b4 in korean...bt then dunno y todae i realli feel scared when the sky chair go out lo...my whole body becum stone like tat...esp my leg...lolx...so pai sei man...thn we take bus to ferry terminal...reached there...we started to take pic again... -_-''' then here take some there take some...dunno how many pics we taken todae le...then chris thinking of taking photo wif the snake...haha...then she keep tinkin wan to ant...at the end chris & winnie still take out the yong qi to take...bt thn at first karen saw the snake she scared until keep screaming n running about...lolx...she hate snake...haha...

after all tat we take bus to habourfront mrt then at the habourfront center we go n haf our dinner at patsaminia...bt then something wrong to the qi fen...coz karen dunno y suddenly like dun tok...thn ask her y she sae nth...haiz...then all asking mi wad happen to her...ask her she dun wanna sae then wad can i do???????????????????

after dinner we go to the big sale again..tracy brought a keyboard...diaoz...da shou bi sia...then all decided to go hm le...bt then mi n chris still go c the may day concert...it start at 7pm bt then we reached there 1 hr plus late...then missed out CSS lo...haiz...so sad...cannt see them sing in live...bt then saw yan zi ah du etc...bla bla bla...the concert ended le...i got saw geraldine too...she so pretty sia...omg!!keke...

2006-04-24T22:16:00.000-07:00

dessert...mango pudding...yummpy....

isnt it double the size of a normal wan??

shark fin....nice...

another of my niece...they r sibling...she look like one of the korean star??

my niece...she cute??

tis model is designed by mi n my bro...lolz

isnt tis nice?it got quite alot of colour...

erm...tis weekend my mum nv work...it mean tat i cant wake up anytime le...lolz...bt then this sunday my mum wake mi up bt then i still lying on the bed dun wanna wake up...then my mum go cut her hair first...after tat then ask mi n my bro to go down...she call mi at ard 12 n ask if i wake up le ma??bt then i haf already waken up by all my mum's fren call...lolx...then my mum ask mi to prepare n go down at 1pm...hang up the phone le i wake my bro up...my dad came back n ask my mum if wanna go other place eat ant...then i call my mum ask lo...she sae anything...then ended up we go chong pang eat...

when we reached home my mum ask if i wanna go ikea wif her ant??actually i dun feel like going de...bt then my mum sae go together if nt dinner wad i wanna eat...still tinking nvm de...coz nth to eat then dun eat lo...then my mum keep asking mi to go...sae at nite meeting my relative go eat hao liao...lolx...then i tag along lo...omg!!when i reach ikea i gt shock sia...realli it s'pore lo...mi n my bro go walk ard the whole ikea...i saw photo frame in many colour it nice...bt then dun feel llike buying...nt coz it expensive is coz i see the Q can faint le...*i haf taken some photo tat i took in ikea...

at ard 5+ we reached orchard...coz my relative they all in paragon...going crystal jade eat leh...the envirnoment there is good...high class restuarant...keke...

2006-04-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

*i'm dropping tear when i was writting tis...*

toopid...idiot...childish...tis is a father tat i had...he toopid...i HATE him...i realli hate him to the core...he dunno how to b a father...a 50 plus guy dunno how to look after family only noe how to find trouble...isnt he toopid...I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM!!!!!!!! I told myself le...if realli anything happen to my mum i will reali hate him n mayb wont recongise him as my dad de...oh ya...he is a stubborn 50 plus guy too...i dun care if i get any thunder of scolding him...all i noe is i dun wish to c my mum to b like tis lo...if my grandma *my mum's mum* is still alive tat will be betta...at least my mum can go over n my grandma will do something to it...i dunno wad going to happen next...it seem like a hell to mi...no one no my feeling...no one to realli tok to...

why my life full of all tis toopid thing...my fren told mi there is up n down in human life...bt then i cant see any up...all i see de is all down...n os realli all down...down to the basement....n no help....

2006-04-17T08:48:00.000-07:00

hmm...sori to keep my reader waiting...lolx...so bhb hor...keke...

k la...been looking for job tis few weeks...n now i was down with flu n cough n sore throat...omg!!!how come leh???aiyo...somemore the weird thing is...y everytime mi n karen alway get sick on the same time de...aiyo...it let mi suspect tat we last time izzit lover or jie mei or ge men or wat sia...lolx...if i sae tis surly got ppl dun believe it de...bt it true...tis week i nv look for any job leh...i only call the clinci assistant de tat chris's intro mi de...then afternoon the A2000 company wic my teacher heng intro de call mi up again...sae tat tis week if it possible for mi to go down for interview...funny man...last last week i wanna go de...bt last min call mi sae tat it postpone coz she havent a sore throat... -_-''' bt then now she call mi i having sickness too...haha...bt then i told her tat is it possible if i go down on friday...coz i sick...she laugh n sae wah now my turn...ya lo...duno y leh...like wanna go down to her company will meet up with something...izzit a bad yu xiang or a good yu xiang??*confused* ~~~ k le la...i going to stop here le...wait for my next update wor~~keke...it will b soon ba....

2006-04-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

same old day...todae meeting tracy to interview...the both of us got interview in bugis...tracy wan is at OG building...mine is at garner comapny...which is at bugis de beach road...lol...and the both lu chi de wo men...find the building...bt cant find it...then nvm...we thinking tat go for tracy interview first (4pm) then after her interview then we go to find the building...tis time clever abit...we din find it ourself we go to the control station n ask the ppl...lol...then she tell us the direction then we walk lo...she sae it nt far...bt i tink it far lo...bt it okie to work there...coz the environment and the building is nice...lol...working also haf to see all tis...for sure the working envirnoment must be good so that got the mood to work ma...rite??after all that we see still early..coz meetin chris to eat n shop shop...so tracy decided we find a place to sit down first...then we went to mos burger lo...i buy a packet of fries n tracy buy a drink (tea)...then we talk take photo...etc...then when chris reach le we go take neo print...our favourite...lol...then go haf our dinner at kfc...after eating tracy is going back home le...sob sob...nvm mi n chris continue to shop...keke...bt then haf to say sori to chris...coz no mood to shop in the beginning...bt after going to the toilet...refresh abit le...lol...noe wad in the toilet chris shouted my name out...haha...coz i was slping in the toilet...wahaha...nearly reali falling aslp le.... :p

2006-04-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

haiz...todae morning while i was still in my dream land...lorrine that is the agent from pronnex called mi...told mi that i was didnt gt in to the company -_-''' then y call?? aiyo...sad man...bt nvm ba...dun tink too much yet...take it as it still early for mi to work lo...havent relax enough yet...lol...todae is also the finalist for the campus superstar...yeah!! it glad to say that the winner is zhi yang and is nt teresa...lol...dun realii like teresa voice...i tink geraldine voice it much more betta than teresa...*strongly agree* lolx...zhi yuan zhi yu...haha...

2006-03-29T09:58:00.000-08:00

OUR CLASS (ISR) PHOTO

ITE COLLEGE CENTRAL (BISHAN)

*sori if the photo is blur or too small

2006-03-28T09:24:00.000-08:00

hmm...haha...finally i gt myself a new hair style n hair colour...erm...quite like it...long time ago wanna dye my hair le...bt then schooling cant dye it...bt now can le...coz no one care le...wahaha...

2006-03-27T09:33:00.000-08:00

karen is not in the pic...coz tis pic is taken by her...
mi & karen...*smile*
ISR rockz~~ good luck for all of ur future... =)
berries in action...haha...think tis is the last pic we taking in sch le....sob~do you think the wan(first frm left) look like a teacher??yesh!she is a teacher....

whoo...haha...exam finally finish...relaxin le...coz now no school no work (at the moment la)...going to look for a job le...haiz...so scared...look for a job also got so many things to scared abt...as i'm a blur person...so i scared i will make alot of mistake...n in the end gif the company lotsa trouble n problem...how leh???good luck to mi ba...n also good luck to ISR...n keep in contact too wor....

2006-03-26T06:38:00.000-08:00

argh!!!haha...i suddenly fall in love with zheng yuan chang n he jun xiang le...wahaha...mayb coz watch thier ou xiang ju ba...zheng yuan chang go more on the cute type n he jun xiang is cool type...omg!!!electric shock...haha...haha...i watch kang you at you tube...their lai bing is zheng yuan chang...haha...they sae they look like zaizai...tat mi n my sis agree to it wen we watch the ou xiang ju (it started with kiss)... :P

today going to one of my relative house coz her son one month...then 4 plus go 768 wait for my mum...bt then i reach there ard 4.10pm call her she nv pick up...nvm i tinking of since so hot i dun wanna wait at there...so decided to go home first...bt hu noe wen i reach home mama call mi...n sae if i ok le ma...i sae i juz frm there reach hm onli...then i say nvm i go down again...then wen i wanted to go out again tat time my dad call mi...sae where am i then i tell him going to meet my mum n go there (relative house)...then my dad say he going to reach hm ask we to wait for him...k...good...then i go n call my mum...i call until i *angry* ARGH!!coz call so many times she even one call also nv hear...OMG!!can throw away le ba...then nvm...since cant reach my mum i only can go down 768 find her le lo...then when reach there still have to wait for my dad to bath all tat first so mi n my mum find a place to sit...after awhile i ask my mum to go up to second floor coz i wanna ask abt the dye hair de cost...surprising my mum nv scold mi...she onli ask mi y i wanna dye again...i told her i wan the hair colour to b more min xian...then tok abt my school...ask when i finish my course all tat...then i tell her i cant go to poly...then she nv scold also...onli sae then i half work half take course lo...yesh!!tat mean my mum allow mi to take up course lo...n nt business course la...i wanna take up facial de...yeah~~~from secondary school i got tis mong xiang le... :) hope tat it can come true one day....

2006-03-25T08:52:00.000-08:00

haiz...question tat i haf been searching for it veri long le...y GOD create human? for trouble? for having many problem? for turning crazy? or there another reason for it...n y must there b guy in tis world...etc...all tis question haf been spinning around mi...getting crazy le...n now i dunno wad happen...all thing around mi is like nt turning rite to mi...even family...dunno wad had happen to her n him again...they will alway b like tis veri half year...i hate it...isnt their act childish then us children?at their age le still quarrel over thing...do they tink abt our feeling (children)?from here i also scared of getting into married le...now mayb or mayb not too late to say abt my married ba...haiz...i dunno...reali dunno...now they havent realli tat quarrel out...onli tat they nv tok to each other...i reali scared tat they will have a big quarrel...got a few times (last time) when they haf a big quarrel i wanna leave the house de...bt then dun haf the courage...n still haf to tink if i reali leave le wad will happen to mi with my decision...where am i going to go? n wad wil i be?it reali tiring...

tis few days been watching one ou xiang ju (it started with a kiss) a nice show...bt it kinda to old show le...haha...i mean the old nt tat old it like been out of the market quite a long time le...it a ger hu like a guy start frm her secondary sch life...then she take the courage to write a love letter to the guy...bt then the guy nv accept...then bla bla bla...the ger still nv gif up keep liking tat guy *bt then tat guy actually also like tat ger only tat he nv sae it clearly to let tat ger understand*...n five years later they get married...so touching~~ those hu havent watch b4 can go n watch it...it reallil veri touching at the back part...i cried~~ sob sob~~ envy e ger inside...bt tat ger is blur lo...wahaha!

2006-03-19T09:26:00.000-08:00

it reali time for mi to look forward le...i going to graduate soon...dunno wad will happen to mi after i work...bt then haf to find job first...coz dunno if i can find any job ant...even if found le dunno if they will employ mi ant...even if they employ mi i will b happy to work there or will i b happy working there ant...haiz...seem like there r many many trouble thing ard...haiz...even finding a job also so much to think of...tis tat tis tat...haiz...wad is tis world all abt???

someone told mi tat the past mi is betta than the present mi...izzit so??i reali miss the sec sch days...it all so simple...juz go to sch n no need to care too much...play n laugh together wif frens...how i wish time can turn back...mei xin shi...tat good...i mind n care how ppl look at mi...tat y i am wad i am now...i veri sentative & emotional...

To: chris

mayb i am not good in giving u any idea of wad to do or how to solve ur problem...bt then u must remember one thing...even if we graduate le...u still can come n find mi...i will b ur listener ear...listen wad ever thing u wanna tell mi...so...if u got anything dun juz keep it to urself...say it out...n u will feel betta...b brave to face the thing u had to face...solve the problem one by one n u will feel relieve...believe mi...kk?

2006-03-17T05:46:00.000-08:00

omg!!nowaday the weather is so hot man...cant stand it...like anytime will "zhong shu" like tat...y singapore got no winter season...it will b good if there is winter season ba...like december coz even thought it got no snow bt at least it cold...mayb tat singapore winter day le ba...bt i heard many taiwan actress actor like singapore season...mayb tat human ba...mostly ppl wont appreciate wad they had currently n keep envy bt other...bt in another way ppl do envy u do...haha...weird y suddenly i tot of all tis thing...funny~~

tis few days i also dun feel like waking up early to go to school also...mayb it all becoz of her ba...our AOA teacher Mdm Raja...hate her lesson...her lesson is real boring lo...n dun realli understand wad is she teaching...she dun reali noe the subject well bt then she like to act as she is the head of the subject...shit her lo!!she make mi veri morning few like slping juz for a few more hrs before i gt up to attend marketing lesson...todae i didn't attend AOA lesson again...tink tis is duno the hw many times le...actually forcing myself to gt up of the bed tis morning le (0645)...then call chris...as she ask mi to gif her morning call...then i tell her tat i dun feel like going to sch leh...no response frm her tink she still havent wake up yet even she is toking to mi...nvm...i out of time to prepare le...so i sae nvm...n hang up the phone faster go prepare...then when i reach wdl mrt...??guess wad??karen msg mi told mi she nv go for the first two lesson n tat is AOA...Lolx...then i ask her y nv tell mi earlier...haha...then bla bla bla...i going to reach yishun tat time i receive msg frm chris saying tat she dun wanna go for AOA also...haha...n thing go same to winnie...bt she had to see tracy...coz they reach bishan le...then bla bla...over the discussion...we decided to go j8 mac eat breakfast...isnt it lame...haha...then mi n chris go j8 wait for karen then the four of us sit at the j8 mac waiting for karen...n our stomach was making lot of noise le...wahaha...after karen reach we eat n went to school...*actually we also got think of skiping Marketing de...bt then cant...coz final paper is cuming n todae teacher is giving us mock test...so haf to go...

*yipee! todae gt our class photo too*

2006-03-12T07:04:00.000-08:00

hmm...todae after sch go swensen eat ice cream...then went back home wanna rest for while before doing house chore...bt then slp until forgt the time le then no time to do housework then yuting after work call mi if i do finish le...haha...then no choice lo...nv do then go bathe n went out le...meet jian yang n yuting at khabit...(dunno izzit spell like tis)...then we headed to orchard...then go buy tix for the final destination 3 (10pm atart) since it still early we buy tix le we go walk walk...then after hlaf way andy call yuting sae he book out tml morning then book in so can come n meet us...yeah!!then we ask him reach orchard le go buy tix first...then mi yuting n jian yang go far east eat...jianyang treat mi eat...thank you!!then we meet andy le...we go cine...andy wanna buy mi present...ask mi to pick...at first i tell him i wan hello kitty...the big type de...haiz...bt then dun haf leh...wan to buy le dun haf...haiz...then in the end i choose another wan cost $45...then the salegirl sae buy $50 got a membership...then andy ask mi to pick another $5 de thing lo...then i look ard i saw a calendar cube block cost $4.90...aiyo...$0.10 more...then the person ask to buy sweet lo...a huge birthday present...hee...love it...also not forgetting yuting too...brought mi a doggie soft toy...keke...THANK....

wanna thank all those hu brought mi present n thank for the wishing....

1. Chris (melody phone accessories)
2. xiaozhu (a puzzel ball)
3. Tracy & Winnie (a black cat photo frame)
4. Mama ($20 red packet)
5. Berries (2moro cd)
6. Mama, Jie Jie, Weijun & Weijie (Kitty black wallet)
7. yuting (a doggie soft toy)
8. Jianyang (a treat on Long John)
9. Andy (A Big sly soft toy)

*jianyang...no need to feel bad or wad...xin yi can le...at least u still got the xin to treat... =)

2006-03-08T05:22:00.000-08:00

08 of march...is a specialllll day...u noe y?coz it a day for all women...wahaha...n it also special coz it my birthday...one year one time...so isn't it special??

todae as usual go to school in the morning then we end lesson at 2.15pm...got no time to watse le...so after school after going locker straight away go home...as winnie staying far away...tat y we dun wanna let her go home...or not...time watsed again...n she haf to reach hm as usual early...sad to sae tat man...bt nvm...at least she got cum out...n it another outing for berries...yeah!!winnie go to my house then ard 5 like tat we meet at yishun (karen & kristy) then on the way we go ang mo kio meet tracy...haha...dunno y man...singaporean like nv see tall ppl b4 like tat...frm yishun when we board the train they keep looking at us le...omg!!cant blame them...coz ard them there is no tall ppl....tat y they so curious y our grp got so many tall de... -_-'''

*n thank for the saboing wor...in the end more worst de is winnie....

erm...our first stop is bugis...coz bugis street veri early close de...so we decide to go bugis first then walk down to Plaza Singapura...the weather is so hot...n we gt abit hungry le...went to bugis street to haf some bite...n then mi n karen tinking after buying we go parco bugis...coz cant stand the weather...in the street karen n chris eat mini pancake...then mi n tracy eat tea leaf egg...yummy yummy...(actually i dun wanna eat de coz too ma fan haf to ask tracy to help mi take the shell out...bt then tracy buy one for mi n help mi) thank tracy...keke...then winnie??we eating she seeing watch...aiyo...then we walk the 2nd level...saw earring winnie wanna buy earring...then i see le some i like de bt dun wanna buy 3 so share it wif chris...hee...she buy 1 then i buy 2...whorray!!got earring again...karen brought a necklace...quite nice...tracy brought nothing...then we walk finish 2nd level we went to parco bugis le...we taken neoprint...a meaningful neoprint...coz got the date taken...heehee...

2nd stop...from bugis we walk to PS...then went to pizza hut for our dinner...nice dinner tat we had...n thank to them...as they brought mi a cake wif ice cream on top...nice cake~~~love it...muackz...n the birthday song shouting out : *THANK BERRIES* =) after eating they gif mi the present...at first they keep telling mi is G-string...omg!!haha...bt then nt lo...guess wat?they brought mi 2moro cd...argh...i saw it le i shout n nearly crying out...haha...tat the cd i wan to buy bt then tinking of the price...coz i now hardly spent money on cd le...i rather spent it on going shopping...haha...shopping no money le still got money to buy cd meh...

after eating finish tracy n winnie goes off first...then mi karen n chris go walk walk at PS for awhile more b4 going home...

thank you so much!!!

2006-03-05T06:48:00.000-08:00

mi & chris

mi & tracy...my face look weird weird de

mi & winnie

after the camp...going back home

taken in the bus on the way to the camp site...my face look weird...

erm...return of the camp~~~

went for the NYAA camp it is organise by Fitness Innovation Team (FIT)...on 3 mar 06 we take AL for the marketing lesson to go n haf our lunch then we haf to assembly at the foyer at 11.45am...then teacher mark attendent all tat...bla bla bla...then we set out...yahoo...haha...then in the bus actually plan to take a nap first de...bt then cant fall aslp leh...bt then in the bus we take photo...haha...tat our hobbies... :P then reach there at duno wad time...coz nv go n see the time...then we assembly at the MPH...then the camp chief us we all to settle now he intro then separate us into 4 groups...omg!!they saying group 1 members...then going to the back they call chris name...then go to group 2...then can see tat chris face realli change lor...nearly burst out wif tear...if mi i tink i will too lor...the carried on wif group 3 then group 4...left mi tracy n winnie name havent call out...then when going to finish saying group 4 my name n winnie name is called out...left tracy...then the camp chief (victor) ask tracy wad her name..then tracy sae out le then he check the list he sae he already called her name...she shld b in group 1...bt then mi n winnie nv heard he call tracy name lo...after dividing us into 4 group he introduce each group instructor...then say abt they do n don't...bla bla bla~~~then carried on wif the activities...oh ya...the dinner is prepare by each group to the teacher n instructor...bt then end up all the food like all in the mess...all got dust de...bt then no choice haf to eat it or nt hungry more ma fan...more xin ku de...*they sae second day nite thier turn to cook (BBQ) for us...

Day 2

cant realli gt to a good slp at nite...coz too cold le...as we r slping in the tent...bt then betta than winnie le...coz she sae i slp quite well as when she turn ard to look at mi i will alway b slping...haha...mayb too tired le ba...then wake up at 5 + omg!!!so early...yawn~~~then go wash up...then assembly go pack the tent then haf breakfast...after breakfast we start our activities le...Zipline Abseiling Rockclimbing TIC & CRC...n also haf flying fox...haha...bt mi in the end only try out the CRC n TIC only neh...as other too scared of height le...so nv try...actually i most waiting for de is the campfire...love campfire...keke...coz it fun...we sing we joke we laugh...i like some of the song too...n the clap...haha...

Day 3

the third day le...in the morning same wash up in the early morning at 6am...n it still the same cant slp well as too cold...haiz...even if second day they let us slp inside the chalet also no use...coz it still cold...n then there too many ants le...*hair stand* then there many ants crawling inside winnie bag...yuckz!!!tinking back my hand my leg is itchy...we takin group photo too!!gt photo frm teacher...then upload inside the blog...wait for the photo...after dismiss mi n chris take cab home...too tired~~

2006-03-05T04:34:00.000-08:00

hmm...it been a long long time since i last update my blog le...coz u can see tat now then i load the neoprint tat

we taken on 230206...the reason for the late update is coz too lazy le...haha...humph..we take a few shots for tis...bt then in the end only can choose two...n tis is the two we choose...wen it is printed out then i found out tat mi got no normal shot...diaoz -_-''' then karen sae i can join jack neo le...funny hor karen...u wan...i intro mo xiao ling to u...then u can learn frm her...haha

2006-03-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

hmm...todae need to hand in my AOA frontpage project...i ask tracy to help mi burn the disk...bt then mi tis sotong forget to put some file inside the drive then burn out le some cant see cant open...haiz...bt then todae must hand in le or nt tat ah ma wan to deduct mark again le...as she sae one day deduct 5 marks...shit her...as well she go n deduct my 100 marks out...aiyo...sometime realli dun like to go to her lesson...bt no choice the excel is part of the exam too...btw...today i never hand in the frontpage i intend to hand in on monday...

going for the NYAA camp...excited...bt then also scared they divide us in different group...our class onli got the four of us going only neh...mi tracy winnie n chris...erm...look forward to the camp...

2006-03-01T03:56:00.000-08:00

1st of March...time realli fly fast...8 more days i'm going to turn 20 tis le...saying good bye to "1" n welcum the arriver of "2"...haha...mayb it realii time for mi to start a new life ahead le...for abt the past more sad thing...my fren shld noe wad i referring ba...waiting for a better life than now...i'm nt blaming or saying tat my life is bad...bt then i onli wanna live in a less problem...n wanna cure my blurness...is blurness good or bad?hu can tell mi?sometime i realli dunno y am i so blur... -_-''' i told one of my fren abt i blaming myself for all the thing happen to mi...bla bla bla...she sae mi back...y am i doing all tis...y i keep loading the blame on myself...the answer is i dunno...i onli tink tat i becum the situation like tat all shld blame mi...isn't it?

2006-02-28T03:46:00.000-08:00

haha...smtime got thing wanna update in my blog de...bt wen the nite came i forgotten wad i wanna type le...sad man...i got a short memory...haiz~~

i realli hate my life now...it full of confused and sadness...tired of all this...wtf is tis...y my life becum like tis...bt it nt realli over or either izzit the end coz i still got fren ard mi...bt will we alway b like tis forever?i dunno...coz left nt long we r going to graduate le...n dunno if we will still stay in contact wif each other...or will we like our sec sch fren??coz my sec sch fren nw all busy doing their own thing...n we hardly meet or contact wif each other...sad thing to sae man...

2006-02-20T05:39:00.000-08:00

yeah!!monday...haha...school is boring bt at least i gt fren accompany...we tok laugh make fun n joke together...nt like at hm in the weekend...too boring le...todae start sch at 0115...first two lesson is marketing teacher let us continue wif our project...finally no need to listen to her lesson...then third fourth lesson is aoa bt teacher nv cum...it seem like she nv cum to sch our class lot of ppl can clap n celebrate le leh...haha...coz no need to hear her sae rubbish...n repeat her rubbish...those hu gt let her teach shld noe ba...

then todae actually we finish sch at 0515 de...bt then teacher release us early at 0415...then we walk walk at j8...wen we decided to take train...we pass by the "bread talk" n they r selling the pineapple n coffee cake...karen brought it...

2006-02-09T08:35:00.000-08:00

been watching vcd (zhen min tian nu) tis few days...then ytd watch until veri late then slp...then starting school in the morning at 8am...tracy wake mi up at 0630...bt then i still dun feel like getting out the bed...haha...too tired le...bt then force myself to wake up...bt luckily in the end i got go to school...haha...so tat i wont watse the percentage le...then as usual go to school...bt todae during the assembly they got a performance...the story of the performance called things we live for? it something like tat...toking abt a ger hu is lonely during the valentine day...as all her fren r attached...isnt it sound familiar??to mi it seem like they r acting out my feeling...see the whole story i understand her feeling too...sometime i was tinking y am i so emotional...i can cry over a small thing...i also dunno y...sometime i saw ppl cry i will cry too...izzit coz of my horoscope...tink no need to sae ppl hu dunno mi c tis le also noe i'm a pisces...

tracy told mi tat she gt new frm one of her fren tat...he got himself a bike...he shld b happy ba...n i happy for him too...coz he dream to haf a bike to drive to school so tat he wont b so tired le to wake up so early in morning when his school start early...as the distance from his house to the school is too far away le...bt dunno y at the same time i feel uncomfortable too...coz i heard many incident (bike) too...*TOUCHWOOD* nth will happen de...hope everything is good to him...

2006-02-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

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toOpiD...wAd WrOnG wEn We R hOlDinG hAnD uP tHe AmPi???It DoEsn'T mAtTeR oUr AgE...aS lOnG wE tInK tAT wE r StIl YoUnG...

2006-02-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

WaH~~~iT rEali BeEn A lOnG tImE sInCe I bLoG lE...hAhA...lEt Mi CoUnT...1 2 3...OMG!! iT aBt oNe WeEk Le...HaHa...IsN't It LaMe...CoLd~~~

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2006-02-02T07:22:00.000-08:00

Mi & Chris...BUT...chris...y r u looking at ur hp??look in the camera...
karen & mi...n look wad karen is promoting on??MOUSE??haha
Our lunch at sakae sushi

todae after sch...had lunch at sakae sushi...erm...tis is the first time i eat sakae sushi wif fren...cool...isnt it??haha...actually there is a buffet at 3pm de...bt todae end school early so reached there early...bt we ask the staff there if we can wait here (seated there) until 3pm then we eat in the mean while we just drink...bt then the answer we gt back is no...haha...expected de ba...so no choice we didnt eat buffet de lo...omg!!eat until so full man...i love the chawanmushi there...yummy yummy...i wan more...wahaha...after eating...we start our shooting again...hahaha...it camera shooting...it time to exercise our mouth again...keke...*smile to the camera*

2006-01-30T06:41:00.000-08:00

HAIZ...dunno if i shld cry or wad...bt i dun haf the angry feeling...as mayb it becoz i been put 'fei ji' until 'c guan' le...chu er tis thing happen...sad...nv expect tis to happen...haiz...nvm la...*see open* the problem is i haf already get change...n tis happen...i dunno hw to sae if ppl ask mi y i nv go le..shld i sae being put fei ji?or it full so nv go??dunno...coz i feel like they will laugh at mi...sae tis sae tat...i dun wanna to b like tis...actually wanna go out alone or ask yuting out...bt tink so late le she wont cum out de...n going out alone??i better b alone at hm than outside alone...coz the feeling is reali...LONELY!!!i duno wad happen to mi...think i got depression (you yu zheng) coz got one advertisment it sae abt depression n i feel like one of them...i even cum across a board at the bus stop n saw the number of the depression center...omg...i go n save it...wad had happen to mi...y my life is so SUX!!!!feeling of dying...i dun wan other pitiful reaction...i dun need to b pity...all i juz need is TRUE is word...true friends true family true relationship (BGR)...bt i tink i dun gt one of it...

2006-01-29T09:59:00.000-08:00

erm...seem tat it been a long time since i update my blog le wor...sori to keep u all waiting...keke...tis few daysss...been busi tidy the house...omg!!it sound big...bt dunno y leh...it like cant do finish like tat...my mum got a jie pi...tat is even a small dust also cannt see then she happi...*faint*...our hse is directly facing the road...where wont b dust de...it easily to haf dust lo...hai yo...

few days ago...erm nope shld sae few weeks i been tinking of him again...dunno y...it all out of the sudden...i keep tinking of him...haiz...somemore ytd i dream of smthing happy bt funny...i dream of him msg mi new year msg as i got send him new year msg...bt when i wake up i then realise it's juz a dream...*sadness* ppl use to sae tat wen u dream of smth happy dun sae it out...so i dunno izzit good for mi to post it here...coz i dunno hu to sae to...i been keeping all tis to myself le...n it difficult...

sometime i juz pretend to b strong infront of ppl...bt the real mi is nt tat strong...i do haf feeling coz i'm a human leh...he treat mi like tis bt no one no tat actually my heart is bleeding everyday...

2006-01-23T06:47:00.000-08:00

omg!!TRIED~~~help!!i'm so tired man...tis morning go swimming at bishan wif winnie n chris...the weather is quite good...at first the sky is getting dark n it got alittle rain drop i tot it will rain...wont so suay ba...everytime go swimming also rain...then we still dun care so much lo juz go...haha...love swimming...yeah!!bt after swimming it so tired...*yawn* then at ard 1135 we went up n go haf a bathe b4 it too late n we have no time to eat our lunch...bt in the estimate time we plan to bathe until n prepare until at ard 1200 de...bt over the estimate time...haha...we 1230 then finish bathe packing all those stuff...then on the way walking to sch karen msg mi ask mi where am i?then i sae we r walking back to sch n eat...then she in sch foyer meet we all coz she reach le...weird...she reach so early...tracy also so early reach sch le...aiyo...tink they miss us too much le...weekend dun gt to see us...miss us too much le...keke...*shy*then we r too hungry le...so faster go canteen eat...after tat go for marketing lesson..actually plan to slp in class de...bt cant coz teacher complain le...sae most of the student nv listen to her lesson wan...argh```i'm damn tired man...my eye becuming more n more heavy le...bt still have to pretend to b goldfish...then still tinking nw so slpy later AOA CA hw to type...wad if later cant concernrate type as i'm so tired nw...GOD bless mi...the time arrived haha...bt when we went in to the lab...mdm rajas start toking away again...i also nv realli go listen to wad she sae...haha...juz wanna faster start the paper n end faster...coz the longer she drag the more nervous i'm lo...keep tinking izzit difficult ant...wah wen the paper start then i read the instruction i thank goodness she got gif us the bullet n numbering hw much we haf to intent...haha...bt hor wen retrive the document...it like a mess man...so messy...dunno wic para havent type yet...lucky got time to finish...bt haiz...i print out le then noe tat i 4gt to put dollar sign n got one 'm' should b in "M" bt i go n put "m"...aiyoz...dunno hw many mark deducted le...pray hard hard...

then after sch mi n chris go causeway point shop shop...then eat our dinner there...ard 0830 then go hm le...coz wanna rush back hm watch the channel 8 show...going to finish le...so must watch...if ppl got watch hw do u find the ru qing??aiyo...she hor...even her sis bf also wanna snatch...mei tian li...haha...catch the show at channel 8 ba...at 9pm...last espiode on friday...

2006-01-21T08:30:00.000-08:00

todae actually got nth...coz wake up at ard 1pm coz my mum is working so can wake up so late...haha...shoik~~~coz weekend dun ask mi so early wake up leh...wake up i start to wake tv le...then at 1+ i go down n buy maggie mee...then cook maggie to eat lo...after eating finish i go clean the window...hate cleaning the window...haha...coz lazy haf to clean veri corner...to ensure it clean enough...omg!!!then finish cleaning at ard 5+...wah...time pass so fast...like tat clean already take so much time le...tink over it also good to clean it todae or nt tml more thing to do...rite??keke...

aiyoz...i feel like i still got many things havent buy yet leh...i wanna buy 'free n free' hair treatment water, marcara, wallet (as i tis yr 20 le so wanna gt a wallet for myself), n many more lo cant tink of it...i first time got the feeling tat i gt lot n lot of thing to buy like cant buy finish like tat...wad happen to mi???

2006-01-20T07:41:00.000-08:00

haiz...why there NO justice n NO fairness wan...wad haf i realli done...y my life is so suck wan...i cant gt wadever i wan...hw i wish i was a rich ppl...i hate ppl hu look down on ppl...use their those toopid eye angle to look at other...i wanna work...n work so tat i will be rich one day even if i nt rich i wish i can at least afford those thing tat i wan...i dun wanna being look down by other...i hate it man...i also dun wana ppl to pity mi...all i wan is juz a normal life...cant i haf it too?i was so frustrsated smtime...smtime i will juz stay in a small corner n cry bt no wan noe abt it...i juz duno y i can cry so easily...i hate to drop tears bt i cant control it by dropping down...my life is reali suck man...there no wan hu realli understand mi...i juz live in a lonely life by myself...smtime i duno if i too sentative or wad...i tend to tink too much even it wont happen...bt i juz feel uneasy...nowaday my mood keep changing...i can b happy in sch nt wen i reach hm i dun feel like toking...realli dun haf the mood to tok...juz wanna watch my tv stay in my room staring at the computer...tat my life...it boring to death~~~wen then i can gt the life i wan...there two person telling mi the same thing..."mayb nw it tough for you nw...bt your future may b smooth one day coz GOD wont let you gt a tough life forever" izzit true??hopefully there tat day...

2006-01-19T07:11:00.000-08:00

OMG!!i'm so tired~~~yawn...bt still have to update my blog first...

hmm...todae start sch early in the morning 8 o'clock...so early man...haf to wake up at 6.20am...bt end up 6.30am then wake up...haha...coz too tired lazy to wake up...bt still haf to force myself to wake up...coz the first lesson is mdm rajas class...n we haf to attend the assembly or esle we gt "0" the the lesson...shit her!!!she like to command ppl...she told us nt to be late for classes bt wad abt her??she alway late for the classes...n wen she start her lesson her nagging start get started also...*faint*she alway gif us assignment to complete within a time limit...n sae she wont point out the mistake tat we haf make...aiyo dunno she lao ren chi tai or wad...she wil keep repeating the same thing many times...even we can memorise wad she alway sae le...courier new 12 default margin...top layout for 1pg 2 or more pgs center layout...for bullet dun gif enter first bla bla bla...

todae in sch there many stalls open at the assembly area there...we are hungry so we decide to find smth to eat first b4 we go swimming...like got many thing to eat leh... :P i buy a stick of chessy hotdog cost $1.20...it nice...cwp they sell at $1.80 (beside breadtalk)...then i saw my sec sch mate he ask to buy the drink (peach tea wif slice apple)???haha...it normal lo...nth de leh...onli like drinking peach tea wif apple onli...bt it okie support lo...anyway it $0.80 onli...keke...still can afford :p then at 1pm we went to the swimming complex beside our sch onli neh...haha...finally it the first time we went swimming it not raining man...coz everytime we go swimming surly will rain de...duno y leh...haha...

we from 1pm swim until 3++...finally winnie go wif us...haha...bt karen nv go...dunno y she dun wana go public pool wan...haiz...more ppl more merry...great!!waiting for our second 4 or mayb 5 ppl swimming outing...haha...we having great fun in the pool todae haha...shh~~cant sae it in detail...tink onli the 5 of us noe abt it...keke...after tat we are hungry coz nv eat lunch then go swim le...feeling hungry...bt end up mi n chris go eat onli coz tracy n winnie going back to eat...then mi n chris go j8 LJS n eat lo...after eating we go shop shop at j8...dunno y leh...we alway at j8 walk bt like wont gt sian de...haha...mayb coz going to graduate le if nw dun shop next time tink wont go j8 le ba...coz scare le...after tat we go back to yishun still go northpoint shop shop then walk pass the neoprint shop then we decided to take neoprint lo...expensive leh...guess hw much izzit...$10 sia...bt i like the hair colour...haiz...onli at there can see onli...hw i wish my hair is like tat...i mean the colour la...so clear...then we shop until we forgt the time le...actually i wanna reach hm b4 9pm coz wanna watch the 9pm channel 8 show...then chris ask mi to go to her hse n watch until 10pm then go hm lo...so i watch finish first lo...half way thru her parents came back...haha...pai seh leh... (#^_^#)

2006-01-17T07:04:00.000-08:00

TOOPID~~~y tis world full of cat (refer to human) n some irritating ppl...they r all surrounded ard mi...gt out of mi...WAD THE F--- r u all...

i haf to clarified smth...my blog is for mi to sae thing tat happen to mi...no matter it bad or good thing...if u read n u tink tat tis is offencing u i gt nth to sae bt to sae its too bad...u haf two choices...one is stop readin n gt out of my blog second is juz continue reading!!!UNDERSTAND??

today 10am chris call mi...n i still in bed bt nvm...i wanna wake up to watch the channel 8 show...it a nice taiwan drama...then meeting karen n chris to go S11 (Yishun) to haf our lunch...the three of us eat you ji duck rice...yummpy~~~love it...hahaha...then 12.30pm we take train to bishan to meet tracy (winnie meeting us in sch as she helping up lao lee in school)...the first two lesson is mdm rajes lesson (AOA)...*Yawns* haha...her lesson realli veri sian wan lo...she keep tok tok tok...y she dun juz gif us the assignment to do then she go thru...she like tat teach i going to fall aslp le...coz most of the thing she teach is quite basic n we learn b4...she can repeat a thing many many times man..OMG!!! *faint* then the third lesson is marketing~~wah!!marketing is a more boring than AOA lo...coz hor i dun reali understand wad teacher is trying to sae leh...bt todae she nv teach...she gif us cross puzzel to do...haha...she sae if hu gt all the answer first will get a gift (small)...then it a malay ger hu gt it...lucky todae teacher nv ask us to make up one lesson for last week wan...

after sch yahoo...going C&K to buy my shoe le...keke...i quite like tat shoe...tis is my second high heel (bt nt veri high)...after i bought mi winnie n karen the three of us go walk walk in seiyu then we r hungry decided to save the money to go n eat bt cannt...we too hungry le...so we went to the basement to buy smth to eat...the tou gan is soooo nice man...esp wen it is hot~~~*ouch* walk walk until 5+ we went hm le...i reach hm at abt 6.10 then my dad ask mi to go gt change n go down coz we r going out...then after i gt change i go down my dad say tat we r goin chinatown...then i sae going chinatown nv sae ask where r we going juz now on the phone dun sae nw then tell mi going chinatown...then i wear until so simple...piang~~~then we went to the
aljunied mrt to fetch my bro then we go haf our dinner...after eating tot going chinatown...bt where izzit??ended up in west mall...shit...n stayin in the shop waiting for her to change her hp...y i so toopid...i should go shopping by myself first...until 10++ then settle those thing...so tired~~~wanna go slp le...buai~~

2006-01-16T07:33:00.000-08:00

hmm...todae i go n dye my hair...chris cut n dye her hair...wah my hair de colour cum out abit onli...nt veri min xian...bt nvm la...haha...wad done is already done le...for our breakfast cum lunch we go to Blk 768 there wat the prawn noodle...haha...wanna eat for veri long le...finally gt to eat le...keke...after we do finish our hair...we rush to take a bathe...oh no!!we r late for sch le...bt then lucky still in time for lesson...as teacher is late too...keke...today got the new intake ppl cum then mi n karen saw one guy veri familiar like at where saw him b4...cant remember it le anyway...so dun tink too much...same to karen too...haha...coz she like keep tinking hu is he...

piang!!duno y she cum hm we two surly quarrel de...coz i tink she like to act cute lor...pls hor i'm speaking out the truth...two headed...hate tis type of person...mayb u dun tink so...bt ppl ard u will discover it de lor...n then u dun haf the quan li to sae mi lor...coz even ur tink u cant settle down for wad u go n sae ppl...mind ur own busines first...n mi wanna move out or nt tat my own business too...dun need u to so KPO go n sae...stop acting as u veri clever like tat...it veri irritating~~~~

2006-01-15T23:39:00.000-08:00

wake up early coz acc my mum to admiralty market...ytd no need to go wif my mum...todae haf to le...aiyo...the smell...cant stand it man...bt then brought a minnie three quater pant...like tis pant...coz it cute...haha...

2006-01-14T23:03:00.000-08:00

wake up at 8+ todae...tot mama wan to go market de...wake up cant see her le...she go market by herself wif my dayi le...nv wake mi up...bt lucky la...coz i dun like to go market...coz haf to wake up soooooooooo early n the market gt smell tat i dun like...haha...wake up go toilet wash up nt long mama came hm le...bt nv brought much thing leh...then mama brought back a pkt of vegetarian gou tiao...mi n my sis share...then after finish i start to clean my cabinet le...coz dusty...then clean the shoe cupboard...then my dayi call ask my mum wanna go taka ant...shop 4 clothes n new year stuff...then my mum ask mi wanna go ant...actually i dun wanna go de...my mum ask mi to go or nt at hm i got nth to eat for dinner...then at first i tink then dinner dun eat lo...bt tink back if stay at hm nth to do leh...then somemore i wana buy high heel so follow my mum out lo see if can gt any high heel ant...meet my dayi n cousin n niece at taka at 5pm...bt them i bathe n prepare need time...then end up 4.35pm then go out...my mum sae late le...i tell her nvm wan la...coz they wont b early de as they alway late...hahaha...we take mrt to orchard...the train so many ppl sia...5.20pm we reached taka le...bt then...as wad i sae they havent reach yet lo...so we juz shop shop at taka...mum brought a watch tat cost $47...quite nice...got small diamond (dunno izzit real wan?) surrounded it...she also brought a top n bottom cost over $100...expensive hor?

my cousin acc my niece to go n buy her clothes...so mi my mum n my dayi we go to household department to look at those utensils lo... wah!!all so expensive sia...so we juz look look onli...keke...then after tat it already 8+ le...my cousin n niece still havent buy finish so i ask my mum to go Wisma Atria then to see for my high heel...coz there got C&K...i saw the high heel le...bt no size... -_-''' then i ask him to help mi check if other outlet got the size ant...he sae wic outlet i wan...then i tell him j8 wan as i alway will go there de...lucky got the size...haha...phew~noe wad...i buy another shoe again...erm...shld i call it shoe??coz my mum sae it nice...so buy lo...haha...tat mean i got three new shoe to wear tis yr le...hepi...n i brought a three quarter pant cost $23...

2006-01-13T06:58:00.000-08:00

finally we saw sun todae...haha...bt then even there is sun the weather is still cold leh...n i feeling like i going to fall sick le...head is so painful man...buay ta han le...

todae finish sch at 12pm...mi winnie karen n chris went j8 food court n haf our lunch...i eat sambal chicken set...the rice is nt so nice...erm...tink northpoint wan betta than j8 wan lor...bt overall still can eat la...went to gardian to see the colour tat mi n chris wanna dye...haha...good...wana dye my hair...already dye for two times le (dye by myself)...bt the colour dun seem to cum out...hope tis time dye the colour is out...haha...n hopefully my mum wont scold ba...we also go C&K to see high heel too...haha...i wanna buy bt confirm is nt too high wana la...after tat we went hm...wah karen acc mi to wait for my bus to cum bt dunno y everytime she wait wif mi the bus alway came so fast wan...bt if i wait alone piang~~the bus took so long wan...so...karen~~u noe wad to do le hor...haha...thanx ar...after i reach hm i again fall aslp on the sofa...too tired le...even fall aslp in the bus...bt dun dare to realli fall aslp coz got quite alot of time overboard the bus end up haf to walk long distance to reach hm...abt 4pm someone knock on the window (knock veri loud) then i go see hu izzit...ooo it the deliveryman hu deliver my bro sim card...tat he lost... -_-''' after i sign n receive it i get back to my lala land again...haha...

my parent n bro came back hm at 5pm like tat then my mum wake mi up ask mi to go bathe then go out...haha...bt too tired to wake up le leh...so i wait until my bro n mum bathe finish le then i go bathe...then we went sun plaza eat then go to vista point at woodlands 500+ there...lastly go cwp...wanna see the C&K high heel i saw it in bs outlet...so can ask my mum to buy bt hor there dun haf the design leh...haiz...

2006-01-12T05:47:00.000-08:00

(this pic is taken by mi)
Michelle, Chris & Kym

haiz...nowadays keep on raining...ytd rain bt 4 awhile onli...ytd we pray tat it will rain long...frm morning to afternoon like tat...bt hor...it onli rain for awhile onli...then we haf to run for the 3+1...then todae leh...mi n chris go out then it keep on raining heavily...aiyoz...weird leh~~

todae school dismiss at 10.15 coz marketing teacher got something on so haf to cancel the 2 hrs lesson wif her...bt also nt good coz haf to make up for her back... -_-''' 1015 dismiss we go back back...wen we reach j8 there some filming outside the main door of j8 so we curious n went up to see...haha...i saw a lot of kids n tink tat it shld b the xie yu ni n zhong qin show ba..."hu dare to look down on mi" shld b tis ba...the kids so cute...got one xiao mei mei wear a white fury boot...so cute n pretty...haha...we watch for quite a long time then went to take train back...on the way walking to train we saw xie yu ni n zhong qin in the bread talk waiting for their filming ba...then chris sae wanna take pic wif them...bt mi n winnie shy dun dare...keke...somemore there got many ppl in the bread talk...omg!!then chris sae she go n ask so we follow her lo...then help chris to take pic...humph...ke c ke c...i nv take wif them...

then reach hm at 11++ watch tv then suddenly fall aslp on the sofa...haha..then slp until 1pm..wake up bathe coz haf to meet chris go out...too bad karen sick so cant go...shopping~~keke...buy a mickey mouse bag cost $20...usual price $22...deduct $2 onli...sad~ask to deduct one more dollar also dun wan...haha...sae wad tis is the lowest price le...mi n chris at there put ask him to deduct somemore...make us look like a auntie...omg!!mi nt auntie...chris then auntie...*chris u shld noe y ba*haha...opps :x

Happy Shopping~~Shopping can let mi release my mind?wahaha

2006-01-11T07:53:00.000-08:00

omg!!todae start sch at 8am...haha...like nt use to wake up so early in the morning...suppose to wake up at 6.15 or 6.20 like tat de...tracy called mi at ard 6.20...bt then hor...mi hor...aiyoz...go back n slp again...haha...mind tink tat nvm...slp for another 5 to 10 mins first coz too tired le...blame myself for nt slping early lo...coz cant slp...sob~~bt luckily my phone msg tone keep beeping...tat cause mi to wake up...omg!!already 0.635 le...after rush to the bathroom...bathe...bt no time to wash hair...haiz...bt then it my fault hu ask mi to wake up so late...haha...a punishment for mi ba...

todae we are having SW (sport & wellness)...and we went to the A block toilet to get change into our attire...haha...funny thing happen...and all thank to karen...haha...k la...mi also la...k...dun later sae i bully u...humph!in the toilet mi n karen saw one 'ba yi'...wahaha...as our old trick is to find someone to pinch...hu noe juz in time chris came out frm the toilet then mi n karen one of one side pinch chris n ask her wad colour??haha...as usual she still look abit blur on her face...n wen the 'ba yi' gt out frm the toilet mi n karen change target...karen go n pinch tracy then mi n chris go n pinch winnie...haha...lol *rolling on the floor* le...after getting change...we walk head to the foyer for SW...while setting down...karen saw another 'ba yi' haha...we start to pinch n run ard again...tink ppl saw us will sae we siao ba...haha...hmm...tink we been skipping SW for a long time le...energy is lacking le...haha...todae we run 3+1...omg!!ambulance pls....haha...cant tahan man...3+1 leh??i'm nt a good runner as when i run for awhile my stomach start to cramp...wah!!like tat hw am i going to pass my NAFA test??HELP~~~haha...todae for the 3 round i run for 11mins abt 18 sec...isnt it slow...getting older le...cant run le...excuses!!hee...pardon mi... :p after SW we haf our one hours break...then going to haf two boring marketing lesson...bt then like most of the ppl nv listen to the lesson leh...for our group...the god of the sleeping beauty appear...haha...guess u gers shld noe wad i mean ba...haha...

erm...went to my grandma hse tis evening...my grandma hse got keep one dog...n the dog is nt the normal dog...haha...it dark n big...*faint* as usual i scared to go into the hse n was alway the last one to enter the hse as i wanna make sure tat the dog is tied up tightly haha...tink the dog hate mi ba...coz whenever i visit...he cant move much...hu ask u...wahaha...*evil laugh*bt then hor smth veriiiiiiiiiiiii funny happen...my grandma stay at 10 floor n we take lift to the 11 floor frm there walk a short distance then walk down the stair...n it happen here...i jus walk a few step down the staircase then the dog suddenly barked veri loud...n my reaction veri big lo...for the first time...the dog barked my leg suddenly becum jelly...then my mum walk behind mi saw it keep laughing (#^_^#)

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2006-01-10T04:09:00.000-08:00

Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and unique. You are quite distant from emotion and people, but you have been made this way by one thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail to see it and are quite creative be it in art, music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in now you don't even bother to try, having been hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude is that you don't need anyone but yourself, people are just trouble waiting to happen. But you really do want to trust someone no matter if you see it or not, deep down your waiting for someone to come and set you free. This kind of depression can turn dangerous, don't let them get to you. Not everyone in the world will hurt you. Humans are humans and are not perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps your shell will eventually disappear.

* in red wan i tink it true...bt wad is the meaning of distant?

*the above quiz you all can haf a try as i tink it quite accuracy de...gif it a try n tell mi urs answer for the quiz wor...enjoy...try click on the link (wad is ur true element?)http://quizilla.com/users/nekokittychi/quizzes/.:-What%20is%20your%20true%20element?-:.

hmm...todae i slp at 4+ am coz was toking to karen for the whole midnight...then wake up at 12pm...wah...long time nv tok until so "early" then slp le...haha...whole day juz stay at home watching television online watch video...haha...realli too wu liao le...for my breakfast n lunch i eat a bread then dinner time...my mum sick nv cook then i wanna go out n buy de...bt then no wan is at hm left mi n my parents bt my mum dun wanna eat so i decided to cook porridge lo...wif can food...ke lian hor...haha...i start to tok crap le...coz nth to do...today like no nice show to watch also...singapore show...sianz leh...opps no offence...haha...bt watch the 8pm channel 8 show...shopping king n shopping queen...

2006-01-09T04:24:00.000-08:00

hmm...now i noe hw to design blog le...so next tiime if i free i can go n design le...haha...now helping my sis to design her blog...last time i still begginer using blogspot she help mi to find all those background all tat...neh...nw my turn le wor...haha...nice ant??kkeke...going to help mi bro to design too...charging money le...haha..no la...juz kidding...i'm nt tat bad lo...

wat the meaning of fren??wad r fren for??haha...y all of the sudden tis qn flood in my mind...haha...dunno...haha...erm....a....er....hw to start leh??hw shld i sae leh....

tink onli a couple of ppl heard mi sae b4 i'm onli a spare tyres most of the time ba...tat wad i tink so la...hope i gt the wrong idea... :x bt i duno y i realli got tis feeling...i'm onli the part of ppl hu r impt onli wen someone need help...dun wanna sae too much abt it...coz i dun wanna offence anyone...i need true frenz...even tis also hard to gt??i been losing confident in love n i dun wanna lose confident in frenship...i like fren hu r "trueful" n no "xin ji"...

k le...i dunno hw to sae le...so for todae juz until here...will be continue (perhap i remember anything to write)

2006-01-08T08:33:00.000-08:00

sunday...todae wake up at...12pm...coz the person wanna cum n replace a new cupboard for us...aiyoz...dunno from when sae wanna cum n replace until nw finally cum n change le...haha...erm...then after they goes off...karen msg mi ask mi going out ant??then i ask her where she wanna go...then she sae she anything wan...then okie lo...fine i tell her i juz wake up nt long ago onli...then haf to do house chore first before going out...or else kana nag by my mum again... :x

in the end karen sae got a suprise for mi sae we meet at 6pm...then the first image in my mind is...she go n perm hair???haha...curious wad she had done to her hair...omg!!keke...k...since she meeting at 6pm i still got lot of time to prepare...slowly~~hee...then i go do house chore then go haf a bathe...then make up...haha...then still got time then i sit down watch tv...0530 then go out...raining so heavily nowaday...haiz...then i go down n wait for bus go to interchange take mrt to yishun to meet karen...858 came i board the bus n walk to the last far behind seat...omg!!!the air con water came out...then i dunno...n the seat is all wet...argh~~shit i go n sit on it...n my skirt is all wet...*faint* yuting call mi then i tell her...ask her how??pi her...she sae she duno...

-_-''' then reach interchange i faster walk to the toilet...then msg karen ask her to cum wdl help mi...haha...bla bla bla...

we went chinatown...in the train we saw JJ and his gf...they are going orchard...haha...they alway go orchard...so mostly go there 80% can see them de...nicole is so pretty...jap jap...haha...then we headed to chinatown we bought tawain "muah chee" with lotsa flavour...quite nice...can try it...then we go market there eat...actually i wanna eat claypot de...bt alway haf to wait veri long so decided to eat nasi lemak...wah!!so nice~~yummpy...nice chicken wing...haha...

10pm headed to mrt le...coz raining no shop to shop le...then at the douby ghuat mrt there we took photo...haha...taken so many photo...keke...oh ya...karen i remember the 'ba yi'???wahaha

2006-01-07T08:46:00.000-08:00

erm...long time nv update my blog le...i'm back again...keke

todae wake up at 1pm...wah...shiok leh...slp until so late...coz got no sch nv go out so can slp until so late...n todae there will b ppl cuming n help us repaint our door n a wall behind the television...coz my mum lo...tat time they help us to paint finish all the hse le...then my mum go n change the colour of the door by ourself...then hu noe the colour turn out nt the wan we wan...then no choice lo...ask the person to cum back n paint again...they reached at 0315 then start painting...bla bla bla...

todae my mum fren's daughter is getting married...then my mum is invited to the wedding dinner wif my dad...bt my dad work until quite late so cant cum back in time...then my mum ask mi to go...haiz...i dun like to go wan coz i dunno wan...go there surly veri sian de...in the end also haf to go...it located at OCC (orchid country club) we reached there at 7++ bt the dinner start at 0830...omg!!i'm so hungry...coz for the whole day i onli eat maggie mee share wif my sis...each half...the dinner start le nvm...it took so long to serve the next dish...wait until i wanna slp le...haha...bt hor i like their wedding...quite nice...the bride n the groom good fu qi xiang...half way thru the dinner the bride change to another suit of 'li fu' then the two couple stand on a car...n one person drive the car in...it like national day the president stand in the car n turn one round...bt tis onli drive straight la...haha...i attend tis wedding dinner i suddenly haf the feeling tat one of my fren ard mi will get married soon...mayb coz tis year we stepping into 20 le ba...the feeling suddenly appear...haha...hmm...hu will b the lucky wan hu invited mi to their wedding leh??

2006-01-02T08:00:00.000-08:00

erm...todae mama & papa nt working so all at home except for her (sis)...coz whole nite nv cum hm...shld sae i dunno sometime hw many days wont b seeing her...then wake up at 10+ like tat we go marsiling there n eat...then help my bro to choose n buy carboard...after buying all the thing we return back to home abt 12+ going to 1pm...haha as i nv bring my hp out i reach hm saw my phone...omg!!so many miss call from yuting some more she got msg mi too...sae call my hp i dun listen call my hse phone i nv listen too...haha...no ppl at hm hu can answer the phone >_<

then i return back her call...i sae pai seh i nv bring my hp out so she cant find mi...then i telll her i go bath first cum out le then call her...abt 1+ going to 2pm i bath finish then prepare clothes n make up half way yuting call mi sae i havent prepare finish ar...i sae i juz came out frm the bath nt long ago...haha...she sae wah!!u reali bath veriiii long leh...hehe...then i sae i going to finish preparing le...wen i going out then i call her...2.15pm mama papa n weijun(bro) wanna go to my 'dayi' hse le so i ask my father to drive mi to admiratly mrt...then i can save one trip n save time...by the time i meet yuting already 2.35 like tat le...then we reach somerest at 3pm...frm there our shopping time start...yeah!!

actually we plan to reach hm at abt 7.30pm de...coz wanna watch the campus superstar...bt then no time...coz we so late cum out le...so sad...first series already miss it le...sob~~haha...bt then it a fun shopping day...coz got money to shop bt nt much...onli for buying new year clothes...(brought one skirt frm forever orange, one shoe n bag from trendy zone)....shop until leg is so pain...nv buy much thing bt leg still pain...we frm somerest shop to orchard then orchard to PS then from PS go bugis...super leh...wahaha...no wonder leg pain coz walk all the way... @--/--

2006-01-01T09:51:00.000-08:00

hmm...todae wake up at 12pm still can slp longer wan bt waken up by a call...it frm mum...call mi see if i reach hm le ma...coz she tot tat i got go to my fren hse to stay overnight as i nv...so i told her i nv go out ytd...stay at hm all day...isnt it sad to sae??haiz...wad to do??then 12pm wake up do house work...n eat left over food for lunch...bt the food is spoilt le...i still dunno mum cum back then sae it spoilt le didnt i noe it...i noe it...bt it nt tat bad at least still can eat...wont die wan...then finish doing housework watch channel 8 at 4.30 the "hao yi" show...quite nice show...then 7.00pm go out n buy dinner...then after eating sit infront of the computer again...argh!!AGAIN??haha...coz sunday nite got nth to watch leh...tat y i wanna noe more more fren hu r free to accompany mi wen i alone...wen i gt nth to do...

2005-12-31T19:40:00.000-08:00

TOOPID~~~onli one bamboo stick lost need to go n tell the whole world ant...family thing keep telling other...okie...dun mind go n tell bt pls lor...u need face we also need face wan la...u sae papa also infront of 'kuku' n 'ah ma' they like nv gif u face like tat got wad sae wat...wad abt u...u at the back of papa also go n tell 'da yi' 'er yi' they all abt papa bad thing...wad the hell...y human alway like to pin point at other bt alway their finger wont point to themselve...shit!!the bamboo stick realli nt i make lost wan lor...STOP telling them is mi...help to do housework gt scolding nv do also gt scolding...if nt see no one wan to do u tink i like to do meh??i can dun do then alway go out like other...GT WAD I MEAN????

Tis few days karen got ask mi abt moving out of the house when 21 year old...i wish i can...hope if one day i reali ask abt tis she will allow...by the time i already 21 le pls b open abit...dun juz follow old traditional...wad century izzit nw le...dun b so old fashion hao ma...i wanna move out of tis house also got reason de...one i dun wanna alway gt nag...n i dun wanna alway wanna go out also scared tis scared tat...i wan my freedom...n i wan to b independent!!!sometime i reali dun wish to tok ill abt ppl...bt i reali got no choice cant stand it...lucky i got tis blog hu can accompany mi...i found tat for the past yr my mood changes veri fast...those hu r close to mi shld noe it...i also dunno wad happen to mi...my mood realli can change veri fast bt i tink it wont harm anyone la...i nw trying change also...keep the unhappy thing to myself n dun show it out on my face?must or shld i change??wad it i reali keep it all to myself n one stand i becum crazy coz of the lack of memory???haiz...

my life is full of areoplane...todae actually wanna go to my fren house to countdown for 2006 n stay over nite there de...bt in the end being put areoplane le...haiz...full of areoplane...duno wad the hell izzit...haizzzzzzzzz...hope next yr will b much more betta than now ba...todae wake up at 10++ then 11 plus start staring at the computer le...my com frm the morning on until now 10pm still on...haiz...too sianz le...everyone seem to enjoy themselve with their bf in tis last day of 2005 except mi alone staying at home staring at the computer n television or toking on the phone wif yuting...nth to do...karen keep asking mi to go cwp with her n her bf bt i go there b light bulb??one time of experience is enough le...in tis time i duno wad to do...wanna go out bt dunno go where...tinking of going out alone de...bt scared walking alone in the crowd...as all r happily having their fun n mi one person walking along the street...haiz...hmm...juz now frm 10.30pm tok to yuting until 1++am...then juz nw at 11.55 channel 5 got 20mins of countdown show..so wu liao...20 mins onli also wanna show... -_-'''

b the longest blog i haf type ba...no choice bored to death le...anyone can understand my feeling nw??the loneliness in mi....

2005-12-30T21:29:00.000-08:00

2005-12-29T20:51:00.000-08:00

Whoo..went swimming todae wif karen n chris...great!haha...coz nowaday got the urge to go swimming...bt todae we not going to public swimming complex wor...we went to fren's bf hse...still got steam bath..isnt it great??haha...we stay inside the steam bath until dun wanna leave there...so comfortable...haha...we frm 4+ swim until 6+...then haf a bath le go eat our dinner...bt onli mi n chris...coz karen go to her bf hse eat...bla bla bla

go to the topic i keep tinking...sometime i wanna juz bang my head to the wall die le yi liao bai liao le...can 4gt all the thing regarding of him...he sae de...all is he sae de...he sae we can be fren...bt is tis call fren??one of my fren ask mi realli got tat difficult to 4gt abt him ma??i also hw to answer back also...my friend sae onli 3 mths relationship onli...for him he wont take it hard...bt it not the same for mi...mayb i put too much inside tis relation le ba...end up it hard to gt out...for mi it nt the matter of 3 mths short or long...it the road tat we been to...the day the moment we been together...the happiness and the sadness we go thru in tat 3 mths...some people may thing tat 3 mths??so short??bt for mi it cant sae to be short or long...coz i treasure the moment we r together...hw i wish i can go back to tat time...coz it my most happy thing i ever met...i going crazy le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit man...todae stay at hm for the whole day coz last few days busi...so nt at hm n nv do house chore..then intend to stay at home today to tidy up the house todae...or not i wanna go out too de...haiz...bt i stay at hm tidy up in the end tis wad i gt...scolding n nagging...wad toopid logic is tis...hm bamboo stick lost sae mi...everything sae mi...haiz...sad~~~

2005-12-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

christmas eve...bt sianz leh...no christmas mood...haiz...all frens (sec sch) like wan go out dun wan like tat...hear le also sian...esp Axxx...gif answer gif until nv gif...ytd sae wad he can onli go out wif us until 10pm...after tat meeting girlfriend le...wad the fxxx...wana meet then go meet all the way lo...like tat half way go le..no meaning...somemore go out coz of the countdown ma...bt tis morning he call mi n ask if wan to go out ant?i sae i dun wan coz u alway last min last min...i dun like last min outing/thing...coz got no tat mood to meet le...somemore already decide to meet chris le...bt in the end i still end up in my aunt hse...haiz...coz we two keep tinking of where to go...surly nt going town as onli the two of us...bt i wanna go...sobsob~~it fun to go orchard in christmas eve...then i suggest wan chris dun wan...she suggest wan i dun feel like going...piang~~going crazy le...argh...where shld we go leh??my dad n bro came back frm work..i reali going crazy le...no place to go...no choice go to my aunt hse lo....wad a boring christmas eve...hopefully next yr will b betta....on the way to 2006

2005-12-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

tat wad friend r for????

y ppl like to sae ppl behind their back...cant juz sae it infront of them??if realli wanna sae then dun sae it infront of tat person then pretend tat the person duno...haiz...i dun wanna sae it hu...coz i noe no one is perfect in this world...mi myself is nt a perfect person too so i cant blame on anyone...n i discover a new thing too...some ppl also tend to wear a fake mask on their face..dun they think it xin ku??as they need to wear the mask for the whole day...omg!!wad kind of life i'm i living at....

erm...tml is christmas eve...it also mean a new year (2006) is cuming le...wad happening thing will happen to mi next year neh...no one noe it...except GOD!!he is the one hu create n control human future...opps!!y i suddenly becum so christian??wahaha....actually tml plan to go out with my sec sch frenz wan...bt then...haiz...tat andy sae wanna gif answer to yuting sae if he is going ant...bt nv called...tat wad i expected in the first place le...then yuting call her hp he off it...is tat wad fren call??

2005-12-20T06:14:00.000-08:00

erm...todae start school at 1.15pm but waking up early at 8+ then meeting chris at yishun at 9.30am coz i wanna go change my mp3 as it spoilt...bt there no more warrantly cover coz the date is expiry...bt karen n chris both help mi to call down n ask...thanx ger!!lucky they let mi change for the last time...nw cant drop my mp3 anymore le...keke...then after tat we shop shop at toa payoh for awhile b4 going to bishan meet tracy winnie n karen...

then finish school at 4.15pm karen agree to go causeway point wan..bt in the end put aeroplane...piang!! :@ (angry face) bt mi n chris still going lo...then when we at cwp karen call mi then she sae she will b going to cwp wif her bf -_-''' then ask to take neoprint...then actually i tinking of nt to take wan...bt tink of it hardly karen will ask to take neoprint wan...then wanna take wif her...bt then 7+ like tat call her she sae she on the way to jurong le...haiz...put areoplane the second time in one day...haiz...speechless....

2005-12-17T19:21:00.000-08:00

Escape Day!!!

erm...todae actually wanna meet early de...bt andy wanna go n make his passport then yinglong going for his driving lesson ba...then he msg us sae he will b late ask we all if we wanna meet at marsiling then we take cab to escape...so we decided to meet abt 1.15pm at marsiling bt tat jiaquan aiyo...dunno where he is we waited for him nearly to 1 hr le he still havent turn out...somemore the three of us (yuting yinglong & mi) keep calling his hp bt he nv pick up...we tot wad happen to him sia...n andy already reached tampines le...omg!!no choice bt he have to wait 4 us lo...ard 2pm we dun wanna continue to wait le so the three of us take cab lo...then ask andy to meet us at escape...half way in the road...jiaquan finally call us...noe wad he still at hm -_-''' diaoz...he ask if the cab gt go to yishun ant...of course no...we take frm marsiling wan leh...then we ask him faster take bus go...in the end he take cab down...haiz...by the time we enter the escape it already 3 to 4 plus le...so late le...n the theme park closing at 8pm...haiz...more worst is tat every station we play once onli n it start to rain...so...we wait 4 the rain to stop...bt it nv stop then ard 7pm we went out lo...go tampines wanna watch movie bt all the show start veri late...we scared too late le no more train or bus to go back...so we nv watch...n went hm at 10+...

*haunted house...scary...the first station we go wan is haunted house...n my tear drop down...wahaha...so it too scary le...mi one hand hold on yuting another hand hold on andy...if anyone got go escape u can go n try...

2005-12-16T07:24:00.000-08:00

haiz...the show todae..sob sob~~~yoyo so poor thing...like let jianyi play feeling like tat...after watching tis show...agree wif smth...all guy is realli the same...tend to play wif ger feeling...wad wrong wif u all guy??cum back to reality ba...stop all this nonsense...even a taiwan actor can play wif ppl feeling too...take for eg todae i watch "yu le bai fen bai"...got one actor i 4gt his name le...fan zhi wei if i nt wrong...stand two boat at one time...nw poor cyndi...ger hu r the one hu have disadvantage in the end...unfair world!!!!

OMG!!!y todae weather is so HOT??i need air con pls...wahha...feel tired le...time to go to bed...*bedtime* good nite everyone...

*tomorrow is a new day*

2005-12-15T06:06:00.000-08:00

todae smth happen in j8...bt it quite funny...mi & karen when to haf our lunch at kfc...after tat we shop shop at j8...then got one auntie lost her daughter...omg!!!then the auntie keep shouting her daughter name...then mi & karen see the whole j8 then like the whole building up to 4 floor all looking down...can imagine the situation??bt lastly the auntie found her daughter....thank goodness...

juz nw watch the channel 8 9pm show...the wang jianyi...piang!!!he hor...dunno hu he like leh...firstly yoyo then coz of failure of the dance competition he break up wif yoyo...then go choose xiaoqian...then nw coz she heard wad yoyo mum sae she decided to gif up the dancing partner wif jianyi...as she sae tat the best partner of his should b yoyo...after xiaoqian watch jianyi n yoyo dance she gif jianyi a chance to choose again...in another word she wanna break up wif him...serve him right...hem...all guy is the same...onli noe hw to hurt a ger...shit!!!tml must watch the show coz it last espiode...REMEMBER TO WATCH!!!CANT MISS IT...OR U WILL REGRET...haha

2005-12-14T06:58:00.000-08:00

erm...tue we start our lesson at 1pm...so mi & chris meet early to go 4 a swim...haha...wake up esrly in the morning at 6am then dad go to 'uncle' (chris bf) hse there to pick him so i go along to meet chris there...n kind dad hahaaha...fetch us to bishan...bt guess wad...the sky is getting darker n darker n it start to rain as wad yuting hope...pi la...tot cant go swimming le...bt we decided to eat our breakfast first lo...at ard 8+ then we start to walk to the swimming complex...wen we gt ready to swim the rain stop...luckily...

bt dunno y after swimming then went to school gt abit tired...bt after sch more worst...feeling super tired le...wanna Zzzz...then reach hm mum still ask mi to do hse work...shit!!!so tired le still haf to do hse work...wad the....then i like nt feeling so well...whole body aching...bt swimming still fun...haha... :)

2005-12-10T19:06:00.000-08:00

<---tis is draw by Tracy...thanx Tracy coz when i was so sad u cheer mi up by tis drawing...nt forgetting those who alway by my side during those period...(btw...tis drawing i convert to black)

10.56 juz wake up....mostly weekend when i not going out i can sleep until 12+....bt i todae wake up so early it bcoz "he" suddenly appear in my mind can sae in my dream ba....haiz....coz of tis i cant gt to sleep le....

tis weekend so sianz...stay at home all day...haiz...staying nth to do...onli doing house chore watching tv listen to music...lucky i still got computer so tat i can surf the net...or not i will b bored to death...wahaha....

2005-12-10T06:51:00.000-08:00

erm...karen read my blog n ask mi y my entries like all so sad de...y ar?is answer can sae hard to answer...tat my life...tat nt i wan also...bt i trying nt to b like tis le...few days never blog le...coz dun feel like bloggin...haha...wad a weird person i am...todae after sch go haf my lunch at the canteen wif karen & winnie...1pm we board the bus to a musem near suntec city...then abt 2+ we went off le...then the three of us walk to suntec city mrt mi & karen heading chinatown while winnie heading pasir ris...she going for her family chalet...as for mi & karen we decided to go Kbox...omg...first time sing Kbox for so cheap...student price about $10 per head...plus 2 free drink per head...n titbit for free flow...isnt it cheap??haha...at first we duno titbit is free flow until karen ask mi to call them n ask... -_-'''

i got a qn...y so many ppl like to sae one thing to mi? "you r a good ger"
shit man!!dun reali llike to hear tis...coz duno if i shld b happi ant...shld i b a bad ger so to b able to b happi...coz seem like a good ger like mi alway gt bully or cheated...

2005-12-06T08:32:00.000-08:00

This is a nice song sing by yang cheng ling (rainie)

曖昧 ai mei

曖昧讓人受盡委屈
ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu
找不到相愛的證據
zao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju
何時該前進　何時該放棄
he shi gai qian jin he shi gai fan qi
連擁抱都沒有勇氣
lian yong bao duo mei you yong qi

只能陪你到這裡　畢竟有些事不可以
zhi neng pei ni dao zhe li bi jin you xian shi bu ke yi
超過了友情　還不到愛情
chao guo le you qing hai bu dao ai qing
遠方就要下雨的風景
juan fang jiu yao xia yu de feng jin

到底該不該哭泣　想太多是我還是你
dao di gai bu gai ku li xiang tai dou shi wo hai shi ni
我很不服氣　也開始懷疑
wo hen bu fu qi ye kai shi huai yi
眼前的人　是不是同一個　真實的你
yan qian de ren shi bu shi dong yi ge zhen shi de ni

＊曖昧讓人受盡委屈
ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu
　找不到相愛的證據
zao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju
　何時該前進　何時該放棄
he shi gai qian jin he shi gai fan qi
　連擁抱都沒有勇氣
lian yong bao duo mei you yong qi

　曖昧讓人變得貪心
ai mei rang ren bian de tan xin
　直到等待失去意義
zhi dao tan tai shi qu yi yi
　無奈我和你　寫不出結局
wu nai wo he ni xie bu chu jie ju
　放遺憾的美麗　停在這裡＊
fan yi han de mei li ting zai zhe li

REPEAT＊

2005-12-06T08:09:00.000-08:00

wah piang...y nowaday my temper so weird de...the mood swing very fast too...can gt angry easily...smtime angry until i wanna shout at ppl hu make mi angry...bt i try to control...i realli try veri hard to control nt to show my temper out...bt my face cant change...tink my face will write all out ba...todae i tell tracy tat we meet at school tml...coz i told her i heard someone sae tat she nw meet nic veri xin ku...u noe when i heard tat my heart is aching lor...bt hu can understand...then i tink tat since it like tat then i dun b their burden lo...then decided to go sch by myself on wed thurs n fri as this three days we start at 8am...bt when i told tracy abt it she start to gt angry le...my god!!sae also wrong dun sae also wrong...did i do anything wrong??haiz...i also dun wanna make thing confused...juz wanna drop tis topic...coz as a human already got lot of thing to fan le...dun wanna coz of tis got one more thing to fan...n dun wanna coz of tis small little thing spoilt our friendship...

2005-12-04T05:28:00.000-08:00

todae meeting yuting at cwp coz wanna go metro c perfume bt the addidas perfume cost $29.00 wif one free bag...i dun like the bag so i went to the body shop to look for perfume tat cost $39.90 for 3 bottle...it got fruity favour...like the smell...hmm...smell good...bt still consider wanna buy ant...coz got abit expensive...hehe...erm...after tat we meet yinglong at wdl mrt the front cabin...then we decided to go to PS watch chicken little de...noe wad...the Q is soooo long...haha..."Q" 4 awhile we decide nt to watch at PS le...coz too many ppl...then we go park land...go play arcade...wanna play pool...bt yuting sae got too many ppl there so dun want to play...no choice stay at the arcade lo...then abt 5+ we walk to bugis...then buy movie tix...nowaday thing becum so expensive even watch a movie cost $9.50...omg!!!the show start at 6.15 end at 7.20 like tat...short movie...sob sob~~bt the show is funny...bt dun realli like the story line...

- the sky is falling down....omg!!REALLI~~!!!
- todae is my day....all i need is one more chance....

2005-12-03T02:13:00.000-08:00

saturday...weekend...haiz...boring weekend...haf to stay at home...wake up at 12+ todae...watch tv do housechore...tat my weekend life...isnt it boring??chris gt ask mi to go watch movie...bt my head dizzy see thing blur blur de...so decided nt to go also coz she going wif ppl i dun reali noe too then will feel weird n bu zhi zai...yinglong msg mi ask mi wanna go out ant i also rejected :( nt tat i dun wanna go...smtime i reali dunno wad i reali wan...i feel tat the whole world is giving up on me...sob sob~~~i feel so lonely n hopeless...i'm still young i dun wanna my life continue to b like tis for the rest of my life...n i feel tat everyone ard mi is living in a happy life except mi??

2005-12-02T07:34:00.000-08:00

omg...so tired man...today in school tired bt cant realli sleep...coz the lesson is still on...bt lucky to finish school at 12pm...then winnie, karen, chris & mi when to basement of J8 then we went to buy tofu...omg...it taste so....good...haha...they saw mi eat once then try out le...realli it nice especially when it is HOT!!!after tat we take train back le...winnie take bus mi chris & karen take MRT coz chris wanna go to my hse n print project n i wanna go cwp settle smth so onli karen alight at yishun. the two of us go to woodlands...after settle thing at cwp both of us buy lunch n go to my hse n eat...

Reached my hse...we eat...then start to fo the print out half way thru we tinking of dying our hair...so went to blk 768 n brought a $8.90 dye hair de...then went back home...juz decide to dye onli seem like someone is coming back...as i cant let my mum noe i dye hair...coz scared she will nag...bt the first time i dye she knew it le...no choice...actually chris wanna dye her hair in my hse wan bt too bad my dad is back...so chris onli help mi to dye lo...my eye is closing... >_<>

2005-12-01T04:59:00.000-08:00

1st December...bt it still dun seem to gt better in my life...haiz...my life now is S---...everything dun seem going to the right path...feel tat i'm alone in tis world...no wan care 4 mi at all...reach hm mum alway ask to do tis do tat...wad can i do??she still my mum so i haf to obey wad she sae...bt y alway mi??like i'm doing the whole housechore like tat...*i'm sae tis nt cause i wanna blame anyone

todae 12pm finish school...actually decided to eat at J8 de...bt karen dun wan so we went to TPY eat while chris haf to take away LJS home n eat...sori hor...then mi & karen went TPY eat & shop at there lo...omg...TPY like nt so good to shop le wor...then actually wanna meet my secondary school at the evening then go causeway point watch movie...bt i went home early first to put my bag then eat dinner le then go...bt hu noe...again...thing tat ppl cant expected...smthing happen so cant go le...actually haiz...causeway point will also let mi tink of him...as we last time mostly got no time to meet far n we mostly meet go causeway point...bt for mi no matter where we meet...got see him i already happi le...nw when ever i pass by the places or go to the places tat we had been to i will start to tink again...tis habit wont change 4 the longgggggggggg time ba...k le...stopping here....

2005-11-30T07:44:00.000-08:00

everything seem nt going smoothly for mi...y leh??tis morning start school at 8am...bt then i wake up late in the morning...shit...n my punishment for overslept is to pay 4 the cab fare...coz i taking cab to school as the first lesson cannt b skipped...argh...getting unlucky wen each day passes by...wad shld i do??go pray??does it help??after all those thing happen to mi nowadays...i learn smthing...n tat is mostly human being is selfish...so i must b selfish somtime too...it tis world who make mi changed...i'm sorri if i offence any of u (refer to my fren or ppl ard mi)...n nw wen ppl sae anything i try nt to believe too much...coz u wont noe if they r speaking the real thing ant...

today 2.15pm after school...walk walk at J8 and i'm meeting yuting after her work...n thanx karen 4 accompany to wait 4 her to turn out...if nt u i tink i dunno haf to wait at there alone doing wad...3++ going to 4 yuting finally arrived...then karen went hm...then mi n yuting walk walk at northpoint...go to the comic shop...yuting rent 2 comic...i intended to rent wan...bt...scared gt no time to read...coz inorder 4 mi nt to tink so much i tink alot of thing to occupy my free time...so i wait until i realli got nth to do le then i go n rent the comic...after shop until 5+ mi gt hungry le...n we went to the food court to settle our stomach...then chit chat...7+ went home...reach hm bath then watch tv...10pm online...every weekday after 10pm nth to do le...tat my life...isnt it boring??I NEED A HELP!!!!

2005-11-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

erm...my feeling getting much better le...n tink i trying to see open le...mayb it coz of watching the morning 10am-11am taiwan show...i tink the actress is more pity than mi...bt i see her like tat i like see a mirror image of mi...y guy alway give empty promises...it make mi dun trust anyone...n nw i wont tell anything to other expect when i realii confirm the thing...so it sori if i offence anyone...i dunno when i will gt back to last time...mayb one day one year all forever wont...no one noe it...

2005-11-28T06:30:00.000-08:00

todae...monday...another start of the week...mi still cant gt it over...still will keep tinking abt it...y it so fan living in tis world...y must god create human when human in tis world got so much of problem & trouble??it realli tired living in this world...coz u realli dunno wad a person is tinking deep inside their heart...as usual todae in school dun feel like toking...bt middle of the school i still got tok abit...bt nt much...mayb i will continue to b like tat...hu noes?coz i dun wanna abt future...it too far away frm mi le...i dun see any light ahead...all black...nt even a light...hu can tell mi wad my future is??

he still nv contact mi...he reali tat busi ma??y ppl tend to break thier promises..if they noe they wont b able to keep thier promise they y give the promise out in the first place...pls...stop tat...it realli hurt a person deep inside the heart if u break promises...

2005-11-26T08:04:00.000-08:00

todae...haiz...early in the morning 8+ andy msg mi...after tat tinking of getting back to slp again...bt no matter how i also cant gt to slp le...last time i mostly can slp until 12+ now...8+ wake up juz stare at the computer n television...can anyone understand mi?yuting they all ask mi to go out...dun juz stay at home...realii wanna thanx them...nt onli my sec sch fren...also wanna thanx berries...n other hu came n ask mi wat happen...thanx 4 chatting wif mi n accompany mi when i feeling down...if not u all i tink i been staying at home the whole day staring at the "shi shi fang fang" (square) television n will start to tink lot of thing again...

haiz...sae abt todae ba...todae meet yuting & andy 5pm at khatib mrt...then go bugis wait 4 yinglong coz he wanna go do his PSP thingy...bt mi frm khatib to bugis nv tok a single word..juz nod or shake my head...then yuting & andy see le also cant stand it...bt no choice...i got no mood to tok...nv tok much for the 3 three days le...haiz...i noe ppl ard mi see le will feel sianz too...bt i will try to settle my xin qing first...i need time...after tat waited 4 yinglong at bugis for abt 20 mins...then take train to somerest waited 4 jianyang...aiyo...whole day waiting 4 ppl...then after that go hereen...jianyang go find his friends tok...piang wait again...we waited 4 a long time le then decided to go cineleisure wait 4 jianyang n eat patsamania...after that we go walk walk then plan where to go...~~~~~~~in the end mi 3am then reach home...

2005-11-25T22:20:00.000-08:00

after wad i had heard shawn sae my tear start to drop continuous...non stop....i dunno wad to do...i confused...i dun wan tis to happen...hope it juz a bad dream i had....bt it not...i been tinkin n tinking n tinking 4 the whole night...n cant gt to slp....realli cant slp...realli veri tired...i been tinking 4 the whole night...y such thing must happen to mi...got ppl told mi mayb it the test given between us...i dunno...i realli dunno...i wanna continue tis relationship i dun wan to break up...his temporary break izzit realli temporary????hope he can faster change his mindset...i juz feeling miserable...i hate tis kind of feeling...realli hated...if i got do snything wrong...juz wanna sae SORRY to u...wad i do to make u angry is not wad i mean it de...wad i must do leh??can anyone tell mi...i dun wanna live in tis kind of miserable life...got a few times i got think of jumping down frm high floor...or juz cross the road n being bump by vehicle...nw all i wan is we can start all over again...even start from friend onward...to let u settle all ur thing...bt hope for the time being u can msg n call mi at anytime...Called him n spoked to him too...i realli dun expect this day...he sae he got feeling 4 mi...bt tat time he didn't sae tat...he sae he still got abit feeling de...y all becum like tis??wad have i realli done?cum to the conclusion is tat we becum fren...i told him we start all over again from fren first...then he sae nt those juz known fren...is good fren type...coz he sae i'm the onli wans hu noe wat he like n dun like n noes his temper....i agree to b fren first...as i still hope tat there spaces 4 us to gt to know more about each other first...he also mention tat we b fren first mayb if there is a chance we still can b together??will there b tis day???i dunno....i hope if he got any problem he can tell mi...juz tell mi wad he tinking...dun alway keep inside...n take care...dun fall sick again...

2005-11-24T22:16:00.000-08:00

The thing i dun wish it happen had happen it todae...haiz....realli sad man...todae after school go J8 eat with winnie & chris...then reach home prepare to rest 4 awhile before start to do housework...bt who noe...shawn call mi...he sae got a thing wanna tell mi bt i hear le will angry...omg...in my mind i already noe wat he will told mi le...realli dun wanna face it....he sae tat we temporary break first...then let him change his mindset...coz he sae he got no time to acc mi...n it unfair to mi...he noe i dun mind...bt he mind...y all tis bad thing alway cum to mi wan...i tot he is the one...bt y thing turn out let tis...i realli wish tis is juz a dream...am i dreaming??he promise he will fu zhe de...bt nw....he sae it temporary...izzit realli temporary???hopefully...i realli hope to b wif him...he is the one when i was wif him i wont feel pai sei or wat...everything also quite dare to sae out....there less guy hu make mi feel tat...ONLY HIM!!!Haf to thank karen & chris...4 acc mi tis afternoon...sorii if make u two feel boring...coz i realli dun feel like toking...And also wanna thank Andy...if nt he call mi n chat wif mi...i tink i wont feel better...at least after telling him n he gif mi some advice n tok to mi...i feel much better than juz now...bt in my heart the hole is still there....